~.:The Way He Planned My Life:.~

2005-12-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

2005-10-23T11:56:00.000+08:00

Science cant prove that God does exist
BUT
Science can neither prove that God does not exist!!!

sad sad me?

2005-10-13T19:57:00.000+08:00

i cried today during worship...
God flashed me all the disappointing, rejected and sad moments i haf in acjc..... sad i cried... actutally not bcoz i am leaving sch or the people ard me but i was totally so sad to recall those hurtful moments n really thankful for God as He was really always with me thru all these times n pains... bringing me thru it... though till today there are still sad sad DISAPPOINTING moments...

ya maybe i really shldnt put expectations on man anymore but put my expectation fully on God....

Forgiveness

2005-09-30T10:57:00.000+08:00

--Forgiveness is having the faith that the person will change for the better...--

2005-08-23T16:16:00.000+08:00

**......Birthday Special....**

hey guys.... this is a birthday special entry....

firstly, i really wana thank my cell group for the birthday "celebration" at zhenle's place... actually it was a half- surprise.... half not surprise.... coz since i am the birthday i/c, i sort of knew it when Bro Andrew wanted to call back all the w357 pple for announcement.... somemore without our dear yan ming n shu jun... then i seriously wanted to go toilet but they don let me go n sent joseph asking me tons of questions..... so it's like expected for a while... half surprise is tt u all still rmb my birthday when i am the birthday i/c.... u noe manyatime, the birthday i/c's birthday is forgotten since she cant collect money for her own birthday present... so well thanks for the adidas bag n billabong bottle.... yap... would used it maybe in the 4th term or even when uni term opens.... cherish it very much.... yanming, shujun, darice, zhenle, elgin, jin lih, huijuan, keeliang, tianhui, huiyi, bro andrew.... thanks so much...... n not forgetting dear kolina who is the first to msg me happy birthday... thanks.... i really cherish our friendship!

secondly, i wana thank the netball cap[taitai-to-be] n entree pres in my class.... i am really quite surprised wheni lift tt hippo up to see so many colour pens.... 11 in total.... tied under a happy house hippo.... if the hippo can fly, the pens will look like long bullets tt can shoot... haha... really thanks... like it very much.... thanks for the time u all spend to get the present in tis exam period.... thanks for the laughter n company as well... really..... THANKS LOTZ!!!

thirdly, i wana thank my parents for the hongbao n the "For my daughter" magnet.... quite a surprise too.... thank my crez sis for doing things she don like to do like shopping to get me a gift she claimed to haf bought but i havent receive...... n thank the whole family for the birthday cake tt is going to come.... it has been years since i get to celebrate my birthday with my family.... after some incidents years back, we started not to celebrate birthdays with cake.... mine is the 1st in a long while.... hmm.... gonna enjoy my cake n will enjoy it...... oreo cake yum!

fourthly, thanks felicia for always being a true friend..... although it's only a text msg, i really cherish it...

fifth, i really wana thank God.... Thank God for bring all the pple whom i have mentioned above.... thank God even for pple for whom i havent mentioned....
i was lying in bed reading some notes ytd nite.... then something tt was always on my side table caught my attention... a photo.... a photo taken 5 years back on my birthday.... 3 sistas.... i was sec one, my other sisters one just a mth old, another in pri 5..... u noe what? we changed SOOOOOO much in such a short period of time, only 5 years n we haf changed so much...... not only physically, but also spiritually n mentally.... i tink tis 5 years have really shaped my mental greatly.... great great impact..... so i wana thank God for tis wonderful.... hmmm.... wonderful? ok adventurous 5 years in life.... i haf really grown much in my thinking n eq n of course, my height[rite? yw].... thank God n the Holy Spirit for tis guidance... yes really..... maybe w/o God, i wont even live to 18 years old.... so THANK GOD!!!! thank God for bring me thru the real difficult times in these 5 years.... n all the blessings He brought.... i wouldnt haf come so far w/o U Lord....

i am really happy n delighted today.... i really felt loved n cherished.... although i don haf 3 cakes in a day, no crystal jade, no tons of birthday gift n wishes like how some taitai-to-be in my class got...... although i am having yucky physics paper 3 tml,...... although i haf to walk in the rain,.... although i haf to wake up early...... i still enjoyed my 18th birthday.... i felt really blessed.....
but most imptly, i din expect much but received far more than wat i expected....

BLESSED HUIYU!! :P

2005-08-22T10:50:00.000+08:00

NEW UPDATE ON THE TAGGIE TO REPLY TO THE LAST PPLE WHO HAF TAGGED ME!!!!!!

2005-08-06T20:56:00.000+08:00

wouldnt be blogging in this while...

don feel like it.....
wana focus on something else....
going on the Paul's three decision journey....
will enlighten u abt tt if i haf chance....

bye guys

2005-08-06T20:52:00.000+08:00

2005-08-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

2005-08-02T13:26:00.000+08:00

13 days to prelims

2005-07-31T11:24:00.000+08:00

seriously, i am tinking.... why some christians allow themselves not to go to church.... isnt church the best time to refresh yourself n feeling the fresh anionting of God... it's where u can see signs n miracles happen that can GREATLY increase ur faith..... our mustard seed faith can greatly grow.... the Pst Benny Hinn healing cursade is one of the most memorable meeting i haf ever been to.... i am involved in the 1000 man choir n the healing is really more than what any man on earth can imagine or tink off..... what abt the Rev mike connell meeting ytd n the Rev Phil Pringle meeting months ago..... they are all so ... hmm.... WOW! WOW! WOW!

u can say u can also relate to God at home but tink abt it.... IS IT THE SAME? if it's the same, would God bother to want us the go to church? why do u want to stay at the salvation level? come on, let's be like Elisha... let's cross over to Bethel....

if u say u are too busy for God, then that's too bad.... God is also too busy for u then.... christianity is NEVER a religion i mind u.... Christianity is a RELATIONSHIP with God... just treat God as a person, a friend beside u.... would a friendship continue or grow stronger if u are just too busy to communicate with Him?

u can wait.... "i will wait till the time near end times then i will be active..." so do u think u can cheat God? tt's means u will only be a baby, immature christian when Christ come back..... haha.... think abt it.... haha... some funny.... we are alry living in borrowed years... Jesus is really going to come back soon.... u may tink city harvest is just trying to increase their church attendance when i always call u to go church... not true.... if u are doing that, why do chc emphasize so much on commitment to the church.... i tell u something:"NEVER JUDGE SOMETHING BY ONLY YOUR OWN SHALLOW UNDERSTANDING... U CAN ONLY JUDGE WHEN U HAVE BEEN THRU IT OR GO STAY THERE B4..."

2005-07-29T23:38:00.000+08:00

it's friday again.... it's time to reflect on my week tt haf just zoomed by....

this week is one of the weeks tt God brought me lots of challenges, little one but many, to me.... i tink by the power of the Holy Spirit, i manage to overcome most of them with much effort... n thinking back, i gone thru some things i thought i could never overcome....

i can really say tt tis week haf been tough but it's equally fruitful as i noe tt i have grown as compared to 7 days ago.... so tis is a bad-cum-good week.... bad in terms of all the shit n the doggie businesses on monday.... all the disappointments(tons) tt was brought abt by my expectations.... so yw said expectations are meant to be broken.... true to a certain extent.... but our expectations must really be realistic... never place expectations only God can fulfill on pple/ man ard u.... yah... so i am in the process of trying hard n learning to do tt now... yar... n the realisation or sort of comfirmation of the fake pple ard me.... pple can sometimes be so fake n selfcentered tt all they think abt is me myself n I.... only concerned bout the benefits of self at the expense of others..... but too bad... they look too real... but thank God for giving me the wisdom to be able to see what pple think n how some pple are like most of the time...

i really HATE fakeness.... tt's why maybe i am quite straightforward....

ok good abt this week.... 1st n foremost, i wana thank God for being able to catchup with some of my sec friends... noeing how they are doing now.... this is really great.... i like catching up with them.... =) ... then, another things is tt i manage to cool my temper down to avoid any argument quite a few times tis week.... though i felt irritated n angry at first, i could really feel the joy n peace of God overwhelming me after i listen what the spirit haf to say.... yar.... then, we got tis chc acjc prayer meeting tis morning which was great.... =)

there are lots of day in the week which i really started the day quite badly.... like bad things happen in the morning..... but it really doesnt depend on wat happen in the day to determine if it is a good or bad week... it depends on the attitude u wana live ur day with.... live with the attitude tt since the morning is bad, why not make it up for the bad start with a good ending? yar? what kind of day u choose to live or dwell in greatly depends on wat kind of day u are determined to haf.....

this verse have been bring me thru my trials tis week...
Nehemiah 8:10
"....................., Do not sorow, for the joy of the Lord is your strength."
sometimes we just cant keep ourselves down to doing the right thing in the sight of God.... but my strength of doing these right things came from the thought tt God will be really happy in heaven seeing me overcome obstacles n growing into what He had planned for me....

one thing very true:
enjoy every good day
take every bad day as a challenge to our own limits
if we are able to overcome it, our capacity is enlarged
if not, don give up... let the joy of the Lord be ur strength to carry on...
live each day as if it is the night of the very last day....

2005-07-22T14:15:00.000+08:00

guess wat.... chc worship album is coming out!!!!! so excited!!!!

2005-07-22T14:05:00.000+08:00

it has been exactly one week...
same time, same place....

nothing has changed....
same things still happen....
wat to do?
i tink i would just have to live with it....
some things we just cant change although we can help but mourn at it....

we should focus on the things we can change in life.... rather than wanting to change things we cant change.... it will be like going against natural if we do that... so live with it lah.... =)

2005-07-21T16:42:00.000+08:00

oh no... u noe wat?
i haf been eating like crazy these few weeks....
cant stop eating.
eating non- stop
i am going to grow damn damn fat......
aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~ i don wana to grow fat!!!! but i can help it!!!!
must be the stress of the upcoming prelims.....
aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~
25 days to perlims...

STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS STRESS

2005-07-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

u noe wat? it's really hard to be a helpful person... really really hard....
in the end, i remain penniless....
i have been helping out in some birthday stuff these few weeks.....
buying cakes, presents, cards for pple's birthday....

sis mayce's bday[longlong time ago]: e212 still owe me money for the cake n card.... i dono when i will get tt back since it's like i am in w357 now... very awkard to get it... u see?

then albert's bday: hao xin volunteered to buy cake after "auntie" got stressed over buying a cake.... but in the end, i havent got back all my money..... "auntie" volunteered to help me collect them.... but till now? haiz....

huijuan's bday: i have to use my nets to pay for her pressie coz i wasnt able to collect the love offering on time.... it was kind of rush coz the admin n budget discussion only take place a few days b4 her bday.... so it's like i havent collect the money.... so i bought the cake n pressie..... i got back the money for cake but only part of the money for the pressie.... haiz.... [tis is still quite ok... not too long ago... so i still can tolerate...]

i really need to trust God financially.... i did the right things but right things doesnt seemed to come my way..... i am quite broke.... seriously....

then i received tis email from bro andrew....
a small part of it:
"Dear W357,

Guys, you've done so tremendously well for A&B, I'm very proud ofeveryone of you who has given so generously and sacrificially to theLord. Remember, it's unequal amount but equal sacrifice.

Now I need to bring you to a higher focus in regards to A&B. Thetruth is that God doesn't need our money, He wants us to trust Him andhave faith in Him for miracles to take place in our lives. He doesn'twant financial and material concerns to preoccupy our time on earth. In fact, Matt 6:33 tells us to "seek the kingdom of God first and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto us". If we putGod and His kingdom first in EVERYTHING we do, we don't have to worryabout financial concerns because He makes it His business to providefor all our needs. So how do we seek God and His kingdom?

When God sent Jesus into the world and ultimately to the cross, Hispurpose was and still is to reconcile all sinners to Himself, that therelationship He desire most is to see the lost return to Him. That means that no matter what our individual purpose is, it has to do withreaching out to others and bringing them to Jesus and we use our gifts and talents to achieve that. That is how we make God and His kingdom the number one priority of our lives.

Let me give you an example. All of you will be making a choice of faculties for your universities when you receive your A level results next year. A self-seeking person will decide on the course based onwhat makes the most economic sense when he/she graduates. An interestdriven person will pursue that which he has the most interest in. However, a Kingdom-minded believer will ask God where he/she shouldenrol in so that they can do the work of God there. For the former,he will be anxious about getting into his choice and if he doesn't, hebecomes disillusioned because he cannot see his future anymore. For the latter, he doesn't need to worry because if he puts God's choiceas his choice, he knows that God will somehow get him in there because whatever God calls for, He also makes provision for it. His future is not dependent on the course he gets into because he knows that Godwill also take care of that in due time.

When he gets into the course, he starts building God's kingdom there. Just as God sent Jesus into the world, this Christian also believesthat he is sent to this course to reach out to the lost there. Inother words, he is primarily a missionary there, secondarily astudent. That is how a person puts God and His kingdom first.

What has this got to do with A&B? Have you sown your finances intobuilding your kingdom or into God's kingdom? If you live by Matt 6:33like I do, you will find that you are always bless with an abundanceso that you can share it with others. Don't give to A&B with alimited vision, give and believe that through you, many will come intothe kingdom and experience God the way you have!

Some feel that they are not effective in reaching out to others, thatthey are not influential enough. I believe that's the result ofhaving a wrong mindset. These people will try all ways and means topersuade, coax, pressure others but will find that none of thesemethods work! Why? Because they are depending on their own strengthand not on the power of the Holy Spirit! When you are living in thepurpose of God and not for yourself, the Holy Spirit will speak to youconstantly about who and how to reach out to them. There is no secretformula to successful evangelism except to respond in faith andobedience to the voice of the Holy Spirit. And when you want to obey,it must be instant obedience and not a delayed response. When youdelay your action, you are allowing doubts to creep in and suck outyour faith.

It is time to live for a higher purpose and give to a higher purpose. As you start your actual giving this week, believe that God is alsogoing to use each and everyone of us successfully in reaching out toothers. Ask the Holy Spirit today who is ready for salvation, who isready to return from their backsliding and come back to God. Don'ttell yourself that it will be next week because next week will nevercome. Obey instantly and act on it immediately...."

2005-07-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

"Speed Of Sound"

How long before I get in?

Before it starts, before I begin?

How long before you decide?

Before I know what it feels like?

Where To, where do I go?

If you never try, then you'll never know.

How long do I have to climb,

Up on the side of this mountain of mine?

Look up, I look up at night,

Planets are moving at the speed of light.

Climb up, up in the trees,

every chance that you get,

is a chance you seize.

How long am I gonna stand,

with my head stuck under the sand?

I'll start before I can stop,

before I see things the right way up.

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand?

Ideas that you'll never find,

All the inventors could never design.

The buildings that you put up,

Japan and China all lit up.

The sign that I couldn't read,

or a light that I couldn't see,

some things you have to believe,

but others are puzzles, puzzling me.

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand,

ah when you see it then you'll understand?

All those signs, I knew what they meant.

Some things you can invent.

Some get made, and some get sent,

Ooh?

Birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand,

ah, when you see it then you'll understand?

2005-07-16T13:42:00.000+08:00

i guess there are far too many stuff happening among my friends recently.... but certainly it din really involve me.... means it's good... prehaps i shld really stay tis way..... dont expect too much.... as once he told me tt expectations are meant to be broken....

i really tink tt to keep a friendship going is never never never easy.... it's just like loving ur enemies... can u imagine how hard it is to love ur enemy? but u noe wat? when God ask us to love our enemies, He has alry put in us the potential n ability to do tt... God never bring us to the situation where we cant take it... God never bring us to a valley which we cant overcome... we are so perious to Him... He go thru so much stuff to get us saved, so would He wan to do any harm to us? He never wan us to fail but really wan us to get out of the situation, overcome it... becoming more victorious than b4.... more capable than b4.... to the ability tt we can complete the work He has planned for us... a plan tt is more than wat we can dream n imagine.... He has alry set everything in place even b4 time began....(in Gen 1 if i am not wrong) so keep going guys....

so back to the point on friendships.... God never want to get us into a friendship to hurt us or to discourage us or to let us lose ur confidence in pple.... He got us into a friendship... maybe a difficult friendship maybe to let us learn how to improve our interpersonal relationships...[tt's wat i tink]... But friends i am telling u tis.... a friendship or a relationship is always two-way.... if it's always one way, there is something wrong... we may not understand why things happen the way they are but we noe God is always there.... in fact if we can understand everything, we can be God alry...yar?

think abt it... the three of us was posted to swisscot after PSLE but in the end, we all went the diff way.... u went mg... u went acsi.. i stayed on in swisscot.... but after everything, we met each other in the same class in acjc... dont u tink it's all planned? don u tink tis is not jus coincidence? tis friendship is really not by chance... it's all in the mind of God b4 time began..... every friendship in our life is never by coincidence.... over 6 billion pple in the world, we met n became friends.... can all tis be by chance? NO! it's all planned.... so let's cherish our friendships with everyone we noe n keep glorifying God n seeking God for directions when we face difficulties

seah: wat i wana say is all in here.... i cant probably msg u rite? haha... that would used up my mthly free sms...
yw: hey... it's good tt u din get angry... keep on going....

2005-07-15T14:14:00.000+08:00

there are so many things i cant understand.....
but sometimes when i get to noe more n haf greater understanding, i start to struggle to keep going....
i dono... so is it better to noe or not to noe?
what's the use of having understanding of most of the things in the world, noe abt lots of things when all these knowledge n understanding make u sad? i don understand..... might as well be a dumbo n live a happy life...
dumbo don care or no need to care abt so much things in the world.... the do what they feel like doing n even if others laugh at them, they cant understand it.... n they just laugh.... smile.... issit it good to live like tt? w/o the worries of the world n always so content with their life coz they don need to or don understand anything in this world...

yah.... maybe it's easier to act blur sometimes..... i learnt to do that as i grew up.... manyatime, i alry noe n understand stuff tt pple are saying to me but i jus act blur.... it's better to do tt sometimes.... it's no use letting others noe tt u actually noe alot when in the end is like dui mui tan qing.... or they might ostracise u...

someone once asked me:"do u feel _____ when _____ always______?" actually i really don feel that way at that time, but now, haiz..... i can feel it.... after prolong effect.... i guessed i am made to be a loner, a satisfied loner.... i really enjoy being alone, except for the glares tt pple also give to loners....

sometimes pple just do things u can understand... ok... it's really no good to undrstand a person too deep.... when ever i understand someone even deeper, i sort of dislike tt person..... maybe i can only be a hi-bye friend.... close friends? i don tink i can get to tt level coz b4 tt i might haf done something when i can stand my "friend"....

conclusion: huiyu=loner

hey

2005-07-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

YAOWEN!!!
i need help here!!!!
can give me some ideas for budget refreshments?
i used ur egg mayo idea this week..... but what bout next week?
so hard....

help....

2005-07-14T14:17:00.000+08:00

i am definitely not guessing the reason why u have such a change....
i just feel tt it's too sudden n drastic....
the moment i tink of it makes me haf a funny, "are u joking?" feeling....
but God reminded me tt i haf times like tt too......
n indeed that time, only sis mayce n sis jasmine knew exactly what happened to me.... but i doubt the rest of the cell group noe.... like u, i shldnt haf notice tt period of time.... n like u now, i din exactly tell everyone in the cell group what happened at tt time..... if i did, it will be too aa..... i told only pple who are close to me at that time.....
so i guess it's like everyone will bond to enter tis type of situation n circumstances once or twice in their christian walk..... once u overcome it, everything will be alright.....

u noe wat? the devil is forever so stupid... using the same tricks everytime... he is so stupid.... but u noe wat? God is always with us, in our side.... dont let the devil defeat u... dont let the devil draw u away from God.... let everyday of ur life be a growing n closer experience with God.... when u dont progress, u are backslide coz the christian walk is a progressive n on going one....

God Bless.... still friends? i also no good in english.... i can communicate with u..... my conversational english is totally not fluent.... i still perfer chinese... hehe.... hope to see u soon, recharged...

2005-07-12T10:06:00.000+08:00

hi... i am currently in the sch library slacking... acually planned to read my gp package which i will be tested on tml... but just too lazy....

woke up late today but i was not late for school... thank God... but something really maluing happened.... i forgot to zip up my skirt today!!!!! oh my that's so terrible.... so embarrassing when a guy told me:"i tink u had to zip up ur skirt..." i was like arrrgggg.... oh my... so embarrassing....

this is the song for my day in sch.....
click here to listen to the song....

heh nice? yw must be thinking:"that's my theme song..." haha... yar... borrow from u for a day... summore u can download it here....

how to if u dono...
right-cick on the link n click "save target as".....

u noe wat? i learnt something from bro Andrew....
it's not u cant expect anything from pple ard u..... sometimes, we expect things tt only God can fulfill.... so pple always seem to fail us...

2005-07-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

::Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: 4 whole faculties. One fac to design the new bulb, one fac to test it out, one fac to market it and one guy to write a stupid Email about lightbulbs.

Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.....to compete with RJC

Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.......one to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.

Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!!!!

Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They're too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs...

Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change lightbulb??
A: None......they use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.

Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate(how do you think they're able to change it for AC?)

Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: They'd prefer it darker..........(hmmm ...*raise eyebrow*)

Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None......Their physics is so bad that they make the male teacher cry.....

Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Would they bother??

Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they believe in praying for it.

Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: None.....they are still using oil lamps.

Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a lightbulb??
A: Huh, wat litebarb ...

Q: How you guys wonder who wrote this?
A: TJC!

Q: How many TJC students does it take to change the lightbulb?
A: None. They think they are very bright already.

wateva is tis.... c".) ... Aaarrrgggg.....
it's true to a certain extent until the last part.... abt tjc students very bright.... aaa.... wateva....... that is very subjective....

2005-07-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

THE LAWS OF ABILITY
John 15 - Productivity is a sign of the maturity of Christian
Deut 8:18

1. Ability is the power, skill or resources to accomplish something.
Matt 25:14-15

2. Life distributes to everyone according to his/her ability
Matt25:15 - we can only get what we can handle... which means our current limit....
*but limits can be stretched and increased along the way which lead us to the 3rd pt....

3. God expects you to raise the level of your ability.
John 16:12 - God review to us more things n abilities as we grow, when we grow up to the standard of our current ability... in another words, He only review to us when we are mature enough to accept it.....
it's like u cant tell a baby who can even talk properly tt he/she is going to be a world-class singer... that may be the truth of his/her future but he/she is still not ready mentally, spiritually, physically to accept the fact... amen... =)

4. Ability is increased by use, in fact constant use....
Heb 5:14 (NIV) - "constant use"
tis is the simple fact of practising ur ability to improve n familiarise with it... to use it to the optimum it can go.... benefiting urself n other ard u....
*money attracts money.... talents attract talents.... - like a world-class singer cant get any busker on the street to be his/her partrner in his/her career in singing...

5. Your ability always grows to the level of your DREAMS
the bigger ur dream is, the more room n capacity you give urself to grow, to try, to succeed.... never giving up easily after defeats...
Proverbs 18:9
*dont haf a loser attitude tt always blames the world for the state they are in.... - Jesus never expect us to depend on welfare but He definitely want us to fare well...

6. Inability has more to do with a bad attitude...
bad attitude - mental/ emotional capacity
Matt 25:24-25 - the person with one talent hide it coz of his bad attitude, see the way he speak to his master...
man with great enduring attitude: lance armstrong

7. With ability comes higher responsibility...
sound like the quote in the spiderman movie hur? but tis is very true... it's also becoz of his great responsibility when he got his power, that he rejected the girl he loved... so yah....
*resposibility comes from the word response and ability... it means how do u respond to ur ability to do something...
Luke 12:48 Matt 25:28

8. As ability increases, so does the attraction of opportunity
simple... tis is self-explanatory
Prov 18:16

9. Ability attracts ability
poor pple become poorer unless u are willing to step out to fight for what u really dream n desire for...
Matt 25 - in the parables of the talents, the one talent is taken from the servant of the bad attitude n unfruitful n gave to the one with ten talents....

10. Your ability is hindered or enhanced by the company you keep
Mark 2 - Friends are there to help us to get to the place we can excel.... but they will not be with us forever... when we get to the place, we must learn to be independent n help ourselves...
1 Cor 15:33 (NIV)
*something tt happened in my cell recently let me realised tt tis point is really true.....

2005-07-10T07:39:00.000+08:00

hi... on caffeine again... i noe it's no good... but no choice....
=)

this is so sudden n drastic....
life would never be the same without u.....
come back....

2005-07-08T20:23:00.000+08:00

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

God heard me... He spoke to me alot today....

* u noe wat? tt shows tt i am really right to let go n open up tt time... tis shows tt i am really a nothing in her heart lah... "huiyu is just a freaky gal who can do fairly well in her studies... a ugly one... not one tt she wana look up to.... a persistant stupid christian who always kana bluff by my stupid excuse...." that must be what was on her mind....*

u noe wat..... God never fails....

2005-07-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

a link to a message on dreams:
http://media.cityharvest.tv/asx/audio/Dreams.asx

2005-07-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

harlow.... i am a lil high now... coz i havent slept for abt 24 hours.... due to the coffee i drank last night..... was doing work.... hihi... still high...

though did quite a lot of work, they are all ctaching up work.... partly blamed for my lazines in the buzy hols....

my father is starting to drive in the morning today coz his relief not working for him alry.... gonna be hard on him.... haiz...

discussing with my cgl abt some stuff.... shall stop here...

:)

2005-07-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

this is such a cute blog skin.... i like... but it's so not me....

2005-07-02T16:48:00.000+08:00

to: seah n yw
btw, i just receive tis photo from ning.....
in case u all want it, u all can save from here.....

2005-07-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

haha.... here i am to blog again after one week.... the whole week i am down with a 30 hour/ week study plan which doesnt allow me to go online much.... i tink it will be like tt for the mths till As...

haha... don miss my entries ok? haha... so bhb...

tis week is fun n tiring as well.... it was not a too stress week for me but very tiring coz haf to get back to the 6 hour aday sleeping... ;Ptiring....

but ok... the most eventful day is fri, which is ytd.... it was a unlucky cum blessings day....
i woke up late!
i missed my bus!
i took a cab![i shldnt haf did tt coz i was still late in the end]
i realise i din bring my wallet!
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ok till tis point of time, it is like.... wat the shit day is it? sitting in a cab, with a big 1 kg cake, with only my coin purse(with only $1.20).... i was like oh my.... i am dead....

theni reach sch, asking yw to come n save me by paying the taxi fare.... then
i was booked by baljeet for being late....
meaning i have to go to dc.... i cant go home b4 going for cgm.... haiz.... i din have money.... no bible n notebook....
how can i go cgm like tt?

then i realised i forgot to bring my pe tee which i purposely dried the night b4.... wah... totally freaked out...

quite sad for the first part of the day... got myself into so much trouble.....
but seah said something like tt: it is good that tis day is not on one of ur A level days...
wah.... i was like quite true huh? isnt it? it sort of revive me a lil....

then it was recess.... celebrating albert's birthday.... just couldnt light tt 19 candles coz of the strong wind..... after like hundreds of attempt n tinking of giving up, we finally got to see all the candles lit up.... then albert quickly blow.... then it was eating time!!!! cakes... yum... but one thing.... guys really are not good at cutting cakes....

then weibo was trying to offer albert a cake n he smashed it on albert's face.... haha.... it went up his nose.... then it was chaos... albert running ard touching pple's face with cake.... haha i am save.... the video was really funny.....

then one of the most blessed part of the day came..... it was my napha test.... actually i planned to train my only failed item which is the inclined flexed arm during the hols but i really was quite busy in the hols so din really train much.... only lifting a dumbell while doing honework.....

But guess wat? i manage to do THREE!!!!! i was totally amazed!!!! u noe wat? God looks at the attitude to see if He wants to help u anot.... our attitude towards things help alot.... it's like tuesday, i haf a loser attitude.... theni couldnt even finish my 2.4 coz of cramps but ytd i managed to break my record n do exceedingly of wat i wish to do..... ytd not to bluff u all.... i was really praying very hard in the toilet when changing into my pe tee.....

i doing THREE is really by God's grace... although it is not a lot to other... but i am really really contented with tt.... u noe wat? one more thing i learnt.... God used wat haf n wat we haf done to the optimum..... though i din train much, i manage to pass..... really happy....

theni did dc.... went for the cgm.... it was good.... the game... the praise n worship though it was off key.... the preaching n sharing.... its the first time i see the whole cg wanting to share testimony..... :P the refreshment too.... i like the ice cream.... the phototaking though my cam was in low batt mode at that time....

i really thank God for such a unlucky cum blessing day..... n i am indeed great tt the unlucky part din happen in a A level exam day....

2005-06-26T17:59:00.000+08:00

ok on the last day of the hols, i wana review on my hols.....

I'm so sad.. it went by like a breeze for me. I barely got anything done in terms of work!!

holiday review
first week was rather a slack week to relax from stressful school life tt i have to return to tml...(so sad) nothing much... was the class outing.... the bbq.... watching tv... sleeping till damn late everyday... n interesting discipleship by pst ck...

second week's highlight is definitely the emerge conferrence.... great conference... i have died... it is no longer i who lives but Christ who live in me... definitely refreshed me alot....

third week is a half slacking n half working week... so i din manage to do much work... no momentum...

fourth week is the full working, zone day camp nmango sale week.... one of the most fruitful week i haf...

afterall, i am glad tt i haf really grew closer to my crescent sis... in terms of her christian walk n her studies.... i really pray tt i can help her in wateva problems she has in her studies.... i pray tt i can explain well to her any concepts i wana get across....

prayer for rest of the year: divine wisdom n anointing from God, energy n momentum to cope with the whole lot of work n stress, grow in the relationship with God n the pple ard me in the process, be faithful with the little things....

2005-06-26T17:45:00.000+08:00

i guess i will make tis entry BLUE coz i am feeling blue today...... after a long time, i finally can conclude tt there's something called the sunday blues.... it's a kind of pre-monday blues.... maybe post holiday blues,... a kind of feeling tt u dont feel like doing anyhting though u noe they haf to be done.... cant get anything done today..... so sad... went to tiong bahru to eat just now. as usual, eat a lot. i really like the stall tt sell the fish ... it reminds me of emerge 2004.... the days wheni eat tt everyday n eventually loved it....

went jp to buy bag with my two sis... is my crescent sis who wanted to buy a puma bag.... i thought she should buy a new bag long ago.... she only got two bags n she has been using them for like two to three years.... can u imagine how old the bag is now? i tell u VERY!!! after seeing the puma bag she want, she was still considering..... then i ask her if she like it then she say she like...... then "HELLO!!!???? buy lah... what are u waiting for? huh?"

saw kym ng n chow chu ming at jp.... some chinese variety show... my lil sis was damn happy..... so so excited... but couldnt stay long coz my mum n dad is waiting for us outside in the car... so sad.... yi chang huan xi yi chang kong for her....

now i am back.... at home.... i dont plan to do anything lah... can manage to anyway....

2005-06-24T14:11:00.000+08:00

woke up at 1.45 today....... coz i was on caffine ytd nite....slept only at bout 7 when the sky is bright.... just ate my macaroni n cheese... yum....

u noe what? something great is on!!!! THE MID-YEAR MANGO SALE!!!! so excited...

u noe how long i have been waiting for tis? haha.... very long..... so excited....

when i reach mango.... it was like wah... long queue outside the sshops... the one at raffles city n the one at suntec.... coz it's too crowded so they have to let the pple in one after another when anyone comes out... i queued. i went in... boof~~~ the long-waited mango shopping started.... it was so crowded. gonna squeeze (n i really mean SOUEEZE) thru the crowd to get ard.... there are girls trting clothes all over the place (just try on but never take off their clothes lah.... yw: don be so excited... heh).. in tis shopping trip, i bought a totally of 6 tops.... i don see any suitable pants... but i saw this skirt.... i tried... very nice. but after thinking, i decide to give it up coz its over my budget...

happy... satisfied...

actually planned to go mango sale with ning n del but i feel like it.... disappointments again... don say alry lah...

anyway, i want to add one more thingie to my friends' DON'T list:

i dont like friends who dont reply my messages... n pls loh, to those who always don reply my msg: i noe u are running away from whatever it is i am asking... are u gonna always avoid the things u dont feel like doing? pls lah, grow up man... u are going to face it one day in ur life.... why not now? do u tink running away will solve ur problem? u noe what's the problem..? the problem lies in urself... tink...

i tink i am like the 9 pm channel show's ah hock... the one played by christopher lee coz i like to tink alot.... but i hope i dont look so lunatic.... but maybe i can be really insane sometimes... :P

2005-06-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

ok u ask what if churches werent totally correct?

but can only say.... there's tis commandment: honour ur father n mother.....
to me, tis commandment is not only talking bout parents but bout all authorities tt are set above us..... do u noe the bible says that all authorities are given by our Lord God.... ALL means ALL... government... teachers.... even evil authorities..... so no matter what.... we gonna honour all authorities above us....

ok what is honouring?
honouring is not always agreeing with them..... honouring them is treating them with respect.... not trying to overthrow them, to outwit them everytime..... think bout it...

2005-06-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

today sent my lil sis to sch then i went to sch for gp.... was late.... supposed to do two quotations for aq.... only manage to do one b4 michwong wants to go thru the ans.... wah then the whole session was so long.... everyone round the table can be seen drifting away.... daydreaming.... i was really tired n hungry..... finally the session ended after 2 n half hours.... wah... i am so hungry...

yw seah me went holland v to eat... went breko... ate this hawaiian chez sandwich n snapple mango madness.... yum yum... really satisfy my hunger..... the premium ham, the yummy cheese, the juicy pineapple, the tasty tomato slices..... yumyum.... i like... then yw was having tis entree meeting abt deciding the new ex-co.... i listen to their not-getting-anywhere discussion n stoned.... coz i am so satisfied, full, tired n sleepy.... after tt, actually we wanted to play mahjong at seah's house but 3 lack of one.... actually now i tink, actually can come my house coz my sis can play.... but i forgot where my mum put the mahjong set....

yum... the taste of the sandwich is still in my mouth now...

tml got day camp in church..... but i cant go for leaders' conference..... coz i don haf any leader to go with me.... i am not a leader.... eeeeekkkk!!!! cant go..... haiz.... what tupid medical check up is tt?
:P EeeeeKKKKkkk!!!

2005-06-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

yw question kept me tinking a while....

actually tis is wat i come up with....
i dont wan anything special from a friend but i tis is wat i don wan....
1. I don like friends who lie to me or talk to me, treat with fakeness.... i hate it... i hate fake pple... i cant accept any form of fakeness....
2. i don like friends who don keep their promises... like if we confirm something or to do something.... i really take it seriously... n really hope they can take it seriously....
3. I don like friends tt don try to understand me n try to assume tt whateva they see on the surface is what is beneath.... actually i am really more than a girl with ap.... sometimes, that's really not ap.... but i tink so far, nobody try to understand by asking..... (optional coz tis is quite hard.... i can understand... i can be very scary)

that's all, i tink.... if there's anything to add, i will..... but now there is nothing....

2005-06-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Fathers' Day

fitz- says:
i mean sometimes u are hard to guess wad u wan from a friend

huh? huh? huh?

yar... maybe its true...

2005-06-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

wah..... today is really so hot, humid n warm!!!!! cant take it anymore.... just like an oven.... making me sick again..... sneezing non stop.... also partly due to the dust when i was doing some housework... very tired now...

ytd, went for s2... it was a fathers' day service.... got drama..... i teared a few times when praying for the fathers n watching the drama.... sad tt my dad isnt saved.... sis annabel is back!!! she is really really good....

b4 going for service, i went for children church ministry interview..... it was ok.... but she requested me to be a transport helper n service helper, meaning there will be more work for me man.... :P exhuasted... nvm... i really believed tt i can really do all things that really exceed what i can tink of.... maximise my potential....

after service, i went to jp to meet yan ming... passed her the cards... went shopping for fathers' day pressie.... honey almonds for my grandpa n a mini toy taxi for my dad...

went for family fathers' day dinner after tt.... the rest. for the dinner was so so so so deserted.... lousy location.... cant really find it... had a good talk with my uncle abt church stuff....

woke up early today.... did housework like cleaning, mopping,..... planned to finish the housework i promised to do b4 i go for discipleship meeting today.... finished as i planned n went out.... on the way to bro andrew's place, i couldnt take it anymore.... i felt so dizzy n felt like vomiting..... so i went back home half way to discipleship.... must be the bad weather n i din take my breakfast n all de housework....

heard from sis mayce tt the discipleship meeting was so good.... haizzzz.... wat a pity i missed it... actually quite sad.... dono why kept falling ill these days..... i really prayed for good health to do His work...

2005-06-18T13:56:00.000+08:00

"Breakaway"
Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

2005-06-18T13:47:00.000+08:00

went for cell at evening ytd.... the meeting was great... i like the game though it was alittle disgusting n gross.... a socks game.... then the hand tapping game... haha... zhenle was really good man....

worship was tremendrous.... presence of God was there.... bro andrew's preaching is good.... the topic is about the baptism of the Holy Spirit.... the whole session is really like rededicating my life to Him... putting them on the altar n listening to what God has to say to me.... GOOD

then after tt, we went for dinner at hougang pt... ate quite a lot coz i was quite hungry.... darice was so surprised tt i ate so much... hehe... i tink i can really eat a lot compared to other girls.... haha... that's why i am tall....

cant wait for service later.... going for service 2 coz at night got some family dinner for fathers' day.... :-)

btw,
yw: sorry for psing u at the last min.... hope u enjoyed urself ytd....

2005-06-17T10:38:00.000+08:00

i really tink tt it's quite out of point leh.... u noe wat? the purpose of guys going orchard is really diff from gals.... n the way they considered shopping is really diff..... guys go orchard to play lan games.... oh my.... i never thought of playing lan games there... anyway, the shopping they say is just going to A shopping complex or A shop to see AN item.... so diff right? we gals like to walk ard EVERYWHERE, to EVERY SHOP.. just looking ard to see if there's anything to buy or anything we like..... our shopping can take hours upon hours.. walking n walking... but theirs is so short....

btw, i am not critising them... but just wanted to note down the difference... should i go orchard with yw n wb later? i dono....

anyway, today is the first cell group meeting for my new cell group.... mixed feelings... excited+sad....

2005-06-16T16:45:00.000+08:00

i was good today...

woke up. watch ambush makeover while waiting for my brunch. ate brunch.

did some work. not alot but at least i was more efficient than yesterday.... actually lately i havent been very effective in my studying hours.... din do alot... as compared to what i used to be like...

i got frustrated with the noise created by the traffic outside n the lousy songs the dj was playing.... so i listened one of the jay chou cd.... qi li xiang.... listening to it really picked up old(not so old) memories in my mind..... the memories i had with the person who burnt the disc for me... happy n sad memories.... the kbox times... when i taught her how to sing jay chou songs like qi li xiang.... i sort of forced her to sing with me... coz ahe don really like jay chou...haizz.... life is so unpredictable.... who noes tt our relationship will be like that today.... who noes?

2005-06-15T23:20:00.000+08:00

lost in You alone
is where i wana be,
to hear Your voice

softly in my ear,
You whisper words to me
that i am Yours

can't live a day without Your presence
closer to You i wana be...

my soul cries out
for more of You, My Lord
my portion n hope
i close my eyes n feel You near
there's nobody else
that can take Your place in my heart...

2005-06-15T23:11:00.001+08:00

hey... now everyone is sacred of replying me msg just a lil while late....

i am not tt unreasonable ok.... i can understand ok...

that day i was so angry coz is like a few days there is no reply n everything.... angry...

okie.... just another normal day at home... trying to do work.... but i don tink i am efficient today...

swiss guides having campfire again after so many years.... but heard their proposal kana rejected.... see if they need help anot... i tink i shld help them coz it's like i am sort of the last batch who has campfire b4 the school is undergoing renovation n they cant haf it....

2005-06-14T18:56:00.000+08:00

woke up early... sent my lil sis to sch.... went to bukit batok for discipleship.... saw west mall... stroll ard... west mall changed alot since the last time i went... which is like 1 n half yrs ago... when i'm still in swiss.... i used to hu-wen in bukit batok area.... lot 1.. bukit panjang plaza... west mall... placesi used to go with my pals, guides mates when i am in swiss... miss those times... short sch hours.. still got time to shop.... plus not much homework.. really slack times....

happy times... less worries times... less responsibilities times... less stress...

but everyone has to grow up... we should aim for a slack life.... we should really live our life to the fullest... fulfilling what God has planned for us... in tis way, we can answer God faithfully n truthfully with a sense of accomplishment in heaven.... so tt i can die happily without any regrets in life....

Thank God for such a day....

2005-06-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

church has always been so fun!!!! really fantastic service ytd.... the songs... the performance by Trio... WOOOOO~~~ WeeEEEEEEEeeee~~~ my church is the best man... the excitement in church never stops.... the emerge just ended.... ytd is the 7 services.... today they haf tis dumpling festival thingie at the open ground outside church.... n i simply love the roof top.... the playground..... the cafe where it forever smells so nice (coz of the food) the marvellous 2500 seated audi... the riviera with that "fountain thingie".... the attributes bookstore.... the lobby n definitely definitely the totally classy toilet..... better than any hotel..... everything n everything..... wah our toilet is really one of the best i haf ever seen.....

i never kua da..... don believe then u come n see lah.....

thank God for everything i haf!!!! i am contented!!!! But u noe what? i want more!!!!! n let's be the ones who is creating the more that everyone wants....

hey babe,....
u still owe me one trip to my church.... i never forget..... i tink u should really come church with me on sat.... since u feel bored staying at home on sat.... why are u rejecting Him again n again? all He needed is just one chance.... would u let me? let Him?

2005-06-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

i always feel sad after i reach out.... all the rejections after rejections i get... sometimes i wonder who is tt on the other end of the msg.... everyone will haf an excuse... real or fake i dono.... sometimes i feel like cursing them.... but i cant.... sometimes i feel like not contacting with them anymore.... break tt hurting friendship.... esp for two like ******* n *******... wah.... as if i like to persuade them to came everytime.... like that...

if they are reading this.... i really wana tell them these.... the God i am serving is the one n only true God.... u can tell me that wateva so call god u are serving is true but is there any other religion other than christianity that dare to proclaim that their god rose again? which one haf tt guts to say tt....? other religion are only going after things tt are already dead(like bones or some remains of whoeva god they are serving)? their god can even overcome death.... what god is tt?

tis is definitely not a blind faith of mine... His great works i see again n again.... healing... casting out of devils... testimony after testimony... never ending..... n i am quite sure that Jesus is going to come back the 2nd time.... n in our generation.... He will come back when all in the world has hear the gospel, regardless if all haf accepted it.... i tell u again n again... YOU'LL REGRET WHAT U DID TODAY TO GOD.... rejecting Him again n again..... dont regret n beg God when He come back my friends.... it is too late....
we are already close to the times of the Great Tribulation.... the Great Tribulation will last for bout 3 years n Jesus will come back.... dont only realise tt it is too late when the last turmpet sound, my friends.... after that, as what the bible says.... u will be in hell.... foreva... burning in fire eternally..... n foreva means foreva... eternity..... never never never never never never gonna come out of that....

YOU WILL REGRET!!!!

2005-06-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

i really hate pple who ALWAYS don reply my msgs..... wateva shit is tis.....
i tagged tis on yw's blog..... n the name is :nono:..... actually it is supposed to be a irritated face... an emoticon.... oh so who's nono? somebody ask.... its me.... it me

he is always the one who msg me.... i reply then he don wana reply..... angry leh..... then after some time he send me another msg.... asking the same question(how's u hols?) again..... the second time i reply.... i ask him some question... he never reply.....

i really really don like pple who ALWAYS don reply my msg leh......

ANGRY

2005-06-10T10:53:00.000+08:00

the emerge conference is one of the highlight of my yearly plan..... emerge changed my life..... emerge always grow from glory to glory each n every year.....

tis year's experience was definitely greater than any other years..... the intensity for me is much higher coz i am more involved, either in discipleship, fellowshipping, booking seats, queueing up 2 hours ahead n everything.... i am more involved tis year n indeed enjoyed myself more..... but wat a pity i din join the pos.... it was fun actually.... n jc won!!! 400 bucks marche food... yum yum....

actually most of the word preached are all repeated but pst Kong always has new revelations on each topic...... all the sermons are so refreshing to me, renewing my mind n reminding me of lots of things in life that i should focus on, right now, at tis point of time..... i tink i should focus now is only studies n God.... nothing else.... ok now summary on wat is preached...
s1: value of youth
s2: spiritual hunger.... jabez
s3: preparing upper room for the Holy Spirit....
s4: never ending revival.... Elisha n the widow
s5: Holy Spirit

the praise was always one of the highlights of emerge every year... but tis year the focus is put onto worship.... dwelling the presence of God... true worship is letting our fast-moving mind slow down, focus on God..... not making God making the first one but make God the only one.... be like mary.... sitting at the feet of jesus... listening to wat He has to say to her... making our focus right, making our priorities right...
during session 3 (wed morning session), God really touched me.... presence of God was so strong n wooosh wooosh wooosh.... it goes.... i really immersed in tt presence... tears cant stop rolling drop from my eyes.... really great...
s1: i was so sick tt i cant stand for the whole praise n worship.... cant really breathe.... must be the medicine...
we sang tis indo worship song... kept singing actually.... foreign language but still the language of worship.....
sidney was great.... his voice wah.... great

i din went to watch word power coz was queueing up to ensure seats in the audi.... but i went for the talentime round 2.. they were really tremendrous..... The Trio.... thembi... singsphear.... good good good....

another highlight of tis emerge conference is the discipleship with bro andrew....
tues:
faithful with little things
faithful with wat u haf
faithful with another man's vision
i tink is all bout serving God, serving man with a right attitude...
reminded me what is true n good servanthood like...
also a little on the parables of the talents in matt 25
actually to be successful n to be well respected by pple ard u is to serve serve and serve
serve well of course.... no boss can become a boss without actually gone thru' servanthood... if not, he wont be a good boss... right?

wed:
parables of the sower
wayside heart
stony heart
throny heart
right/ arable heart
n actually we cant really see wat kind of heart pple ard us haf.... so never judge anyone.... never reach out to selective group of friends.... dont choose....

actually i suddenly haf a revelation.... i realised tt among them, there is no mention of any kind of heart that stands in the middle of any two types of heart..... Jesus din mention tt.... u noe what tis means.... there is nothing call lukewram.... there is nothing call lukewarm in the kingdom of God..... Jesus hate lukewarm... He mentioned b4.... He said:" let ur yes be a yes, let ur no be a no...." no standing in the middle....

all that the youth conference brought.
and looking forward to more.
YOU will never KNOW until you EXPERIENCE it yourself

Thank God...

2005-06-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

wanted to blog but really really had no time these few days.... have been pretty busy with church n stuff....

sun received a last min call from sis mayce to go down for pst's discipleship meeting.... so was rushing down to sunset way under the hot sun.... rush rush rush.... but in the end, i was the one of the fastest ones who got down there.... wah... so actually no need to rush.... all sweaty n starting to feel sneezy..... getting sick....
discipleship was bout two types of personality present in our church... one desirable n of course another unwanted.... we're supposed to identify them out.....
after discipleship, i Rush down to meet my family again.... rush n rush the whole day
bought a new digi cam... yeah...

mon was planned to do some real revision n hols homework which i havent even touch till now.... so sad right? but the worst thing happened... i became sick..... was flu at frist..... but later it turned into a headache n fever after a sleep/rest... coz i cant really sleep well with the flu n headache.... my temp rise to bout 39.3 degees cel at night.... so i decide to go n see a doc.... i got to walk all by myself to the main road outside outside my house to the clinic.... so sad right? haiz.... sometimes i wonder if my mum love me.... or she jus tink tt i shld be more independent.... i tink i am really much more independent compared to many of my age... if i continue on tis topic it will last foreva....
then the doc perscribed some medicine(actually alot) for me n ask me to go back for a blood test if the fever persist....
came home took medicine.... went to sleep... couldnt sleep well.... coz of the persisting headache.... owke up lots of time.... then i finally decided to take the medicine again to speed up the healing coz the next day got impt stuff to attend to....

tues n wed was the annual emerge conference.... i drag myself out of bed despite of all the drownsiness the medicine caused.... so tired..... as i was walkign to the bus stop.... i cant even breathe properly.... a tiring 10 min walk...
reached church... had to sit at overflow as expected... found out that they haf change the program schedule for the 3 days.... tues: talentime + parade of sch wed:word power+ preaching challenge+ winning 11 xbox challenge.... thurs: extreme adventure n biathalon...

i will blog tonite or tml on the whoooole emerge as a whole.....
[exactly i typed alot on the first two days but the window suddenly closed n all was gone...... that is all tt i can recover...]

2005-06-04T16:02:00.000+08:00

thur went for bro kenneth cell.... was great.... bro andrew was also there...
atmosphere great...

fri went to pasir ris park for outreach but in the end there are no new friends..... disappointing point of the day... but the fellowship was great n fun.... though my eyes really can stand the sun.... played frisbee... played monkey using a volleybal brought by zhengwei..... everything was fun n really a relaxing day at the beach..... got lotz of snacks too.... we played zhong ji mi ma.... got lotz of dares as punishments....
i kana one dumb dare too.... so stupid.... spastic... gonna ask a little boy if i am pretty.... spastic...!!! but everything was fun....

then a time of word then went home....

got a sad news ytd.... very saddening...

to sis j: God is always there for you n we gonna move on to contiune our walk with Christ....
let's really go out n make disciples of all nations, baptising them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that God has commanded us, and lo, He will be with us always, even to the ends of the age.... matt 28:19-20... gonna really move on a live a fruitful life on earth to prepare ourselves for our eternal life in heaven....

u noe wat?
the current pope make a study n is certain that Christ will come back after a few more popes.....!!!! n u see all the popes are usually very old... let's say, giving each pope 15 years... n after 3 popes, Christ will come back....
1pope-15 yrs
3popes- 45 years....
Jesus Christ ius going to come back in our generation, friends... are u ready for that?
what would u answer God if He asked u what have u been doing on earth?
ask urself...

2005-06-02T15:35:00.000+08:00

wah... spent the whole afternoon making the new layout.... actually improvise lah..... wah very hard.... but i like..... its worth it....

2005-06-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

i forgot to pass the cards i spent the night b4 to them....
aiya wasted my effort!!!!!
so sad.....
now then i rmb
bad memory of mine....
prehaps the tiredness from everything

2005-06-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

do u noe what i mean by some guys are totally bastard? if u don, go acj 2sa2 n see the bunch of guys there n u can see a herd of bastard.... i really mean what i say.

it was class bbq ytd... met seah n yw at king albert park macs, then we set off to cold storage for grocery shopping.... yang en came along halfway..... then to the ntuc at btp.... bought lots of food, yah mainly food.... mayo, potato, egg for the potatos...... dory fillet, sambal sauce, lemon for the fish..... chicken thigh, teriyaki sauce, black bean sauce(took the wrong sauce accidentally), capsicium, tomato, onion for the chicken..... watermelon, lettuce, honey, baby carrots for the salad.... n of cause icecream... yum

then we realised we may not haf enough money to take a cab to daryl's house..... oops... loitering at the plaza for a while when dumb dumb yw suddenly find out he has 7 bucks instead of 2 bucks in her wallet.... totally wah.... wana k him....

took a cab to daryl's place but found tt we cant locate his block.... then yang en n yw went to do the run about to find his block.... called him..... din answer.... called him.... din answer..... din called him.... he called.... so we went into his apartment with the help of his mother n sis.....

rested awhile.... then started work.... ok what i did: skin the chicken, cut the chicken, peel the lettuce, cut capsicium, scoop watermelon, the chicken sticks... yang en also did his part... yw also.... while doing all these, our taitai was sleeping on the sofa so comfortably.... ok daryl did the sotong n egg mayo....

as me n finally woke up seah was doing the chicken, pple started to come.... we finish our job n then they brought down the food to the pit..... then we rested... took some photos.... went down, expecting food...

But nothing was ready.... then ok, ate the cooked food first.... when eating, a few boys took over the pit.... then after finishing the food, i went to see if there is any food at the pit.... NO FOOD... good lah hur? then the girls took over for the rest of the night..... so yucky.... i thought wont haf to do the bbqing..... in the end i did.... bastard guys oops not guys... should e BOYS in my class eat while doing the bbq n never serve us... and they just left the pit after they are full.... wah... cant stand it man..... bastard!!!! only left me n lining at the pit

but thanks to a few guys..... like yw, yangen, eddie n zhengxin for some constant help with the food n charcoal.... i lost my charcoal cooking skills.... so sad.....

u noe wat? i think we really shldnt see things on the surface.... i really din expect zhengxin n eddie to be the ones who would help.... but they did.... good lah...

the bbq failed in the sense of bonding but passed for the food.... quite nice(cos i prepared some).... i like most of the food.... the bbq brought the pple who are already close closer but really fail to bring the unbonded class together....
this brought me thinking again as i got closer to some....
actually the best friendship is really cultivated through getting together without any expectation of each other..... that is the best.... the higher the expectation the higher the disappointment
n actually everyone has their good n bad points.... everyone.... we really shouldnt only see at pple's bad point only but also see their special good ones n rmb the times tt person brought joy n happines for u, leaving footsteps in our hearts..... (but sorry for those whom i havent seen ur good points, i still don really like u, dont noe how to appreciate you... my fault, not urs)

this made think bout the friendship i used to have with min..... actually it was quite fun n memorable... the kbox, the shopping, the chance to try expensive food(though costly), the chalet, the swimming, the jj memories, the sentosa trip, the mahjong.... rmbing pple like salt, vicki, andy, guo feng.... actually they are really fond memories tt will stay in my heart foreva.... trust me, even our friendship seemed to be unturnable, unrecusable, i always treasure the time i spent with u, min

i cried
now

2005-06-01T14:37:00.000+08:00

just woke up.....
having my brunch now....
blog later
cya

2005-05-30T23:25:00.000+08:00

u noe wat? after discussing with yw bout the bbq things, i realised tt i wasnt me, that huiyu i used to be, for the past 1 n 1/2 years.... after i enter jc, after i knew min.... especially after i am with her in acj, w/o vicki....
no doubt we were the only one who really accompanied each other through the first few weeks. but that's also the reason i adopted her way of life w/o noeing it..... causing me to become one who seemed to be so heck care bout whateva tt happen ard. uninterested in everything. unenthu in wat what exactly youth shld be doing.
then with my character, i became a mean, yucky, nobody-likes-to-be-with n lethargic youth....

then she? she is foreva the nice nice girl infront of everyone.... pple must be thinking i bought her to become bad.... like lpj must be tinking i am the one who always persuade pple to pon sch... BUT she is wrong.... tt girl is the one who always initiated it... haiz.... she is still tt nice nice girl now.... but nvm, God can see....

then still got more incident bout last year's bbq class outing. the three of us are the one who sort of initiated the cancellation of the bbq..... bu fang bian to say how.... ask me if u wana noe

very bad right? yes

but good for me. i got out of tt. i am back to tt huiyu, tt original huiyu.... i was never unenthu actually..... i was so active in girl guides.... i can tell u extremely active...... even my mum cant stand my activeness in guides tt once wanted to stop me from going..... that leads to the fact tt i really like outdoors... rock climbing.. obs.. fun.. sports.. and of course cheering.... i used to be able to cheer the loudest... cant imagine right? don believe then u can ask any of my guides fren like zen, shirley, hui koon, jiesung. all my good pals from guides... i was so active.... i was the chair person for the annual guides n scouts campfire.... n i am proud of that....

n now... haizzz..... who can imagine tt i am a slacker in a slacking cca? haiz.... maybe life would be different if i came to acj alone.... may be hard n difficult at first but life would definitely be different...

good tt i let go.... i am back.... although havent fully returned, i hope pple can see the diff in me... like in class outing n cheering in matches... cant change so drastic right? if can, tt can be a little fake

thank God for everything i haf now....

2005-05-30T15:43:00.000+08:00

Facets of Life... Issue #2

a new day approaching [view from my room]

nice hur?

a mother's day present years ago------rainbow!![by seah]

my little sis engrossed in serious work

even had a ache in her neck.... haha like real hur?
wateva

my "no entry" mouth------------ part of my insanity

2005-05-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

ok here i am to blog bout wat had happen these few days....

fri was a fun day though... fri was the first time i loved sch.. yah... un n slack in sch coz got a lot of free periods.... then after tt at nana's house.... fun. fun

sat was resting day at home..... then after tt went for cgm... yah.. it was great n really let me noe more... n u noe what. whenever i noe more, i would want to noe more... my faith grows like never before. actually is never a blind faith... there are really too many little n essential part in my life tt God always input to ensure me tt he is always there n real... there are too many super naturalstuff in my life, though small but true. i thank God for tt.

then after cgm, we went to church together... yah. the service was as usual great but the presence of God was been increasingly thick n tangible throughout the weeks. our church is going from glory to glory. yes. i like it. n btw, i got a good n bad news. our church services are going to be moved to spore expo at the end of the year... bad news: very very very very far!!!! good news: as i sacrifice my flesh to go such a long journey, God will definitly bless me even more. blessing will be so great like never b4. u see. in christian walk, there wont be any time tt there will be no tribulations n temptation to leave God.... if there are none then u must question yourself tt are u growing in God? no progress=backslide... ok back to my case. in my case, family is no longer a obstruction to going to church n everything coz i have told my father bout everything. then God is testing my trust n faith in Him by shifting the services veune from sooomewhere near me to somewhere on the other side of the island.... haiz.... u noe wat... anyway it has been said tt the higher your calling, the higher the difficulty u will face. many are called but few are chosen. do u want to be the chosen one? then trust God n follow Him fully.

sun was shopping day with ning n del. went raffles city, on the way, citylink, then suntec.... was quite sian at first coz i was damn sleepy.... not till i bought a mphosis bag.... heh.. so happy. then i had lotz of food. korean hotplate bbq beef, chocoberry catch, peach yogurt n a big single scoop icecream.... yum yum.... alot n economical.... not like last time, when i go out with blah n blah, atleast, u know at least 15 bucks is to be prepared to be spent on food... wah... wasted.. i should haf let go earlier. the pain wont be tt big n i can save more money to shop... tis time after eating so much n after buying a few sets of maki sushi n a choco chip bread, my spending on food barely exceed 10 bucks, needless to say 15....

ok.
plan for the day:
pack up my notes n files n slack again
tonite got cell group outing to watch madagascar

2005-05-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

i tink tis blogskin
what do i tink?

*here

nice right? yah... hmmm
i am feeling hungry now....
CAN I EAT U?
heh

2005-05-29T11:43:00.000+08:00

a quite cute clip
(*move mouse over pix)

2005-05-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

passed the week tiredly everyday but quite meaningfully..

wed was netball finals..... went down all the tpy to support seah n her team... they played. in fact played pretty well. scored. defended. jumped. intercepted. they really played very well. n they won. not only won but won with much glory n honor. they lead the game from the start till the end. widening the points each round. won by quite a lot. they got the title from the 8year champ hcj. well done. congrats.

then at night. went camelot with ning n del. we got a restricted view seat. bad. but it was damn good for sleeping. i really couldnt understand some parts. yah i am not literature enough i admit. but i don really wish to be tt literature. i am happy with the talents God gave me. i dozed off after the interval. but i really the crew did very well. singing. dancing. speaking. yah

it's his birthday tt night but i couldnt catch the last train toward pasir ris to go to town to meet them. so sad. sorry for psing. hope u all really enjoy urselves at cb.

thur was rugby finals. whole school went down to the police academy to cheer our rugby team on. clapping. shouting for some. n little noise makers for everyone. cute.
the team pushed. jumped. ran. punched. kicked. scored. scored. scored. they won rj, claiming back their title. trashed the stupid bishan jc. 23-0 tt's the score. everyone's damn happy. we claimed back something tt belonged to me. hope it will be with acj forever. weikong was there too. so touching. n the team did the hakka dance. so cute. heh

finally acsians can walk out of police academy proud, head lifted up, with pride.
n the bishan pple will noe how we felt last year.

may God be the glory. the best is yet to be. amen

2005-05-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

"Try"
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
FreeIn our love
We are free in our love

2005-05-27T23:27:00.000+08:00

"If I Ain't Got You"Some people live for the fortuneSome people live just for the fameSome people live for the power, yeahSome people live just to play the gameSome people think that the physical thingsDefine what's withinAnd I've been there beforeBut that life's a boreSo full of the superficial
[Chorus:]Some people want it allBut I don't want nothing at allIf it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you babySome people want diamond ringsSome just want everythingBut everything means nothingIf I ain't got you, Yeah Some people search for a fountainThat promises forever youngSome people need three dozen rosesAnd that's the only way to prove you love himHand me the world on a silver platterAnd what good would it beWith no one to shareWith no one who truly cares for me
[Chorus:]Some people want it allBut I don't want nothing at allIf it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you babySome people want diamond ringsSome just want everythingBut everything means nothingIf I ain't got you, you, youSome people want it allBut I don't want nothing at allIf it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you babySome people want diamond ringsSome just want everythingBut everything means nothingIf I ain't got you, yeah
[Outro:]If I ain't got you with me babySo nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thingIf I ain't got you with me baby

2005-05-23T18:45:00.000+08:00

sat church was great... terrific man... happy tt i broke thru.... i fellowshipped quite okly.... al least did things i don felt like doing...

ok sunday i woke up early.... typed the previous long post
then went town. haf my hair trimed. i like my hairdresser. at least i can communicate well with her.
then met ning... went vigorous shopping.... many places are having sales........but in the end i only bought a pack of wine gum. yah i must be thinking tt isnt like me right hur? yah it wasnt me.
first, i din see things tt i liked very much.
second, i saw these nice tops at mango but i stopped myself from buyying coz the mid-year sale is so near ard. if i buy now n the ad for the sale come out next wk, i would really hit my xin gua.....
third, i really wana save more money for the building fund n more upcoming sales tt are better....

but the shopping trip was fun. it is the kind of shopping trip friends should have. helpping each other find clothes, size. trying on tons of clothes, giving comments... this is the kind of shopping i long for. tis is the kind of shopping i never get to enjoy with xin n min. i dono

then went for family bbq. slacking. stoning..... (_)

i can tell u now tt i am half dead.... fully in deep shit. drowning in it. i haven done a single piece of work for the whole weekend. oopss...... playing too much.

coming up next week is netball finals n rugby finals!!!!! cant wait!!!!

i donno if i am able to go for the class outing..... if i would have to choose, i would go for the prayer meeting. its a really important prayer meeting......

2005-05-22T09:43:00.000+08:00

hi joelle!

2005-05-22T08:51:00.000+08:00

it is tis msg bout Abraham's promises..... actually tis is a sermon much preached in church, n recently in cell gp..... n indeed it had always leave a deep impact on me......

God has lots of great promises for Abraham but it must take Abraham's faith for him to claim his promise from God...
1. Letting go of the old life
Gen 11:31- Abraham left Ur his hometown
this signify him forsaking, throwing away all his old lifestyle to follow God. salvation

2. Letting go of our comfort zone
Acts 7:2-4, Gen 12:1 - Abraham's father died
indeed, losing a family member, a lved one can be the greatest fear n depression in everyone's life. but life still goes on, u see. the world is spinning n no one is waiting for u.... in tis context, Abraham din mourn for his father foreva.. he is sad of course but he shouldnt dwell in tis kind of depression. n he knew it so he got over it quickly n contiuned. it's like doing things that u felt uncomfortable with. not doing the popular thing/ comfortable thing, but doing the right thing. hear from God.

3. Letting go of ungodly relationships
Gen 13:5-15 - Lot leaving for the greener pasture
Lot(heb.) = a veil, a covering
so Lot is like a veil tt made Abraham unable to see his vision clearly. blurred his vision
lot chose the outwardly-looked-prosperous land without the guidiance of God. n later in the bible, it was destroyed.
so Abraham has to let lot go or else he may hinder him from making the right decisions for God. it's like locking an eagle in a cage.... hiding a light under a basket.... potential not maximised.....
so here God is trying to tell us that we must let go of any un godly relationships. not only bgr but also friendships n relationships tt always hinder us from being closer to God, hindering with from reaching our prize that is destined by God. it is really not worth the cost to leave God for any worldly things coz they are all so temporary.

ok on the scale 1 to 10, 1 being the birth n 10 being the death, where do u think ur life is at now? ask urself.....
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u noe wat. i tell u my answer. i am at 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000000000001 or even lesser than that. u noe why? if u are a christian, God promises u eternal life u see. u noe wat is eternal? eternal is hmmmm..... foreva. never ending!!!!! so are u sure u wana give up God for some worldly insignificant thing.... overall, our life now on earth is preparing us for our eeeeeeeeeeeeeternal life in heaven.... tt is where we belong. so keep ur focus on earth as a practise, a preparation for ur heaven life... so it is definitely worth it to let go for God, or else u will regret when u get to heaven.

4. Letting go of past failures/ mistake
Gen 21:9-12 - asked to let Ishmael go
Abraham was unwilling to do tt but he obeyed the Lord's word immediately!
dont be so stuck up in ur mind bout wat happened in the past... cut away the handle behind u. the one tt the devil kept holding to it to prevent u from moving on..... do u noe how great Abraham's mistake is? it is sooooooooo great a mistake tt it cause muslims to multiply coz ishmael is the muslim nation. as God promised tt Abraham's descendents will flourish like the sand of the earth, so did ishmael. great mistake hur? ya so why are u stuck up in ur mind? forget n move on!

5. Letting go of tt which is most precious to you
Gen 22:1-5 - asked to sacrifice Issac Abraham put to the test of faith)
v3: Abraham did it w/o any hesitation. he got up early in the morning!!!!!
v5: Abraham has great faith in God. he said:"we will come back". he is trusted God tt Issac will be safe.
reality, tt precious thing may be ur studies, money, family, ministry, etc. but we gonna let go of it. let God take care of every aspect in our life.... yah

for you, fren

2005-05-21T14:34:00.000+08:00

actually decided to stop blogging for the rest of my life after the incident last sunday.... but i just cant resist.... there are so many things i want to say n i need to say thru my blog.... things tt i cant get to say or don noe how to express it verbally....

went to sch with spects on mon.... coz my eyes are swollen.... cried too much on sun.... obiviously something happened..... but nvm, i still can handle....

spend the week happily, joyfully in school.... tis is the period of time which i truely feel the happening in ac..... the happening tt pple mentioned in ac.... i finally felt tt..... yah after so long u must tink.... but at least i get to feel it in th end.... i really pity those who close themselves up every single day.... ostracising themselves when others din plan to do tt...... studying every recesses n lunches..... yah... mayb i shld stop gossiping bout others...

wah reallly happy week.... but most day went home late... either studying in library or got something on.....

u noe wat.... after i let go, i give myself the opportunity to get to noe other pple ard me much more better.... not just the surface but some deep inside.... i mean tt's the way lah.... i shldnt keep myself to 1 or 2 friends which i always do.... i shld really give myself more chance to noe other pple..... yah widen my scope.....

wanted to go shopping but oh no its raining cats n dogs...... so think cant lah.... but cant wait for church later.....

for someone..... hey life isnt all bout a girl..... u must really learn to let go man..... u haf great n big promise in God's eyes but if u are not going to let go of wat is worldly.... even how great ur promise may be, it will not be fulfilled.... i will tell u one of my revelation later next post coz i gonna stop now.... my mum coming back....

stay tune, fren..

2005-05-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

was busy these few days.. din haf time to blog.
ya really busy week end. busy with wat? haha... shopping. it has been a shopping weekend. happy. slacking but i am now struggling to finish my h/w. haiz~~~ i deserve it...

fri
was released early!!!! happy happy joy joy. no pe. coz i got dental appointment.
went dental. waited for quite long. then to my surprise, i saw alwyn pang. wah totally chuwa toh. he was there coz he got some weird teeth tt is jagging out of his gum. ouch. he say very pain. cut his tongue. he couldnt talk properly few weeks b4. hmmm..... i couldnt see tt. i din notice he is speaking weirdly. nvm
then i went in. n dentist say tt i may be able to take out my braces not appointment coz my teeth structure is improving well. so happy. but tt's only for a moment. not until she tell me tt i had to wear my rubber across my front teeth....!!!!!!!!!!!!!! three rubber bands in my mouth now. ok pain n everything i expect but the thing i am most concern is tt i can eat properly with the rubber band across my mouth opening. bloccking rigght in the middle. wah. cant eat. so sad. i wanted to upload the pix of the new condition in my mouth to help me illustrate but there is something wrong with the modem cable. i don like! how am i going to upload pix next time!!!!???
ok back to the pt, then after tt i went orchard. met two of my sec sch friends. went shopping. some good shopping. bought a new top n a belt. happy joyjoy. bought new facial wash too.

sat
went orchard again with my mum n lil sis. first hour was spent at my mum's office. wait wait n wait. then we went shopping. my mum bought some education gigo cubes for my sis. which i don tink would be of any educational value. my mum n i went shoe shopping. we had three final choice of shoes we wanted. but we really cant decide which to buy. so we bought all three n decide to share among ourselves. i like shopping with my mum. no need to pay money. so good. but too bad i din manage to find a pencil case i like. so din manage to make my mum pay for my pencil case. but never mind.... three pairs of new shoes/ slipper... wanted to go centerpoint to trim my hair but when i reach there is so many pple so i din cut coz i don wana wait. i din book an appointment its my fault anyway. but too bad cant make my mum pay for my haircut. but still got chance...

then went church after tt. was Rev Dr Phil Pringle. e was very very very very good. he not only move in the HolySpirit very excellently but also preach really well n humurously. very good. the presence of God was so strong n tangible.wah.... the 2nd person after Pst Benny Hinn's which i can fill tt presence of God so strongly. very good. i gave alot.

today
went zouk flea market for a while only. really a while. then had to rush back home to rush thru my work which i still havent finish till now. boo..... i tink there is something call sunday blues.... coz i am having it now....

but happy coz bought a lot of things.

2005-05-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

my magnificant church

by my magnificant God

the cross-------------------------------------the riverale

the building

the audi [i definitely need a bigger place!!!]

the rooftop cafe

2005-05-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian... it has been slacking n unproductive these few days. lots of playing n watching tv. lying everywhere. watching online conference everynight. amazing race ytd. it was nice. i like the last part when they haf to find the cigar stall. tt feels more like a treasure hunt style. another thing is tt rob n amber got into some trouble there. i don like them. although i like ron n kelly better n they din win, i also felt happy for joyce n uchenna...

normal day in school today. recess n lunch break was both fun n irritating. fun coz of all the jokes n fellowship. irritating when some idiotic, tink she damn chio girl did something yucky to me. i noe her name....(y**in*). de void deck was damn crowded so i haf to sit beside someone's bag (tt girl's bag) n seah put her bag on top of hers. tt girl then came back. ask me if the bag on top of hers is mine. i said no n kindly want to stand up n help her get her bag. then u noe wat!!!! she put her bag on where i am sitting n treat me as invisible. me= no seat.... wa... cant stand her. tink she chio. yucks. ban qing gao.

then in lpj lecture today, there is tis cockroach in the seat in front of me.... i tink its sleeping. series of events happen after tt which i am too lazy to blog.

2005-05-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

facets of life

part of my winniethe pooh collection---------7 drawfs

my cabinet- -------------------------------pink paper clip
help me out of tis cabinet!!!

on a table in lt2 --------------------------my nice bed

2005-05-09T21:11:00.000+08:00

2005-05-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

another normal school day. got physic spa today. another acting good session as usual. but i dono if i am good enough for tt. anyway its over.

seah was excused pretty early today so i am alone again. but i noe wat, i din feel that kind of loneliness i felt in the past. feeling that i am really lousy. no friends n everything. Thank God i din felt tt today. although i may sit alone at times, i knew God was with me all the while. although seah was out almost the whole day, i felt really happy today. u noe wat, we shoul really see n determine our own value in tis world not by our achievements, not by wat others say, not by anything worldly but by what He had said in the bible. coz all worldly things are temporial n makes our value changes as time passes. truth always transcend time. so i am really a much happy n satisfied human being, child of God now. i felt more carefree. relieved. i tink i haf completely let go of that heavy burden n tripping stone wherever i want to do God's work in my life.

let go
let God
n
let's go!

happy huiyu

2005-05-08T13:32:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

hmm... it's mother's day! will be going out to eat after tis. although i always argue with my mum becoz i always stick to my principles in doing things, i still love my mum. although i don haf a perfect family. we do quarrel. frequently. i still love them. love is something tt no word can describe. love needs action. ur care n concern. u can give without loving but u cant love without giving. amen. for God so loved the world tt He gave His only begotten son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but haf everlasting life. do u noe how tragic n torturous is the death of Jesus on the cross n towards the cross? it is really damn yucky. [go read the book Case for Christ] okay if i continue on tis verse, i will take an hour. there's so much things to talk about on Jesus death. so i should stop here coz gonna go out to eat ard.

if love can be described by words, it's not true love.

faith is the substance of things hoped for, prove of the things unseen!!!!!!

2005-05-07T12:42:00.000+08:00

just woke up. read the newspaper. i was overwhelmed by news on the national funeral of Dr Wee Kim Wee. i came across tis eulogy by his granddaughter. "a fun grandpa who loved animals and respected life" it was a touching articles. an character description of the late Dr Wee Kim Wee from the perspective of a grandchild perhaps. nice article.
wanted to post it on my blog but couldnt get hold of it on the internet.

we really need to take life seriously. not waste our life. not living day by day without any purpose. merely existing not living. gonna live life to the fullest. life is so unpredictable.

two people i know died recently. hmm... one lah. i don really noe Dr Wee Kim Wee. i just know bout him. then the other is christine. she died of leukemia. she was in the same cca as me. interacted with her b4. after listening to wat she went thru tis few days, i respect her. despite of her sickness, she still wanted to live life to the fullest. not only tt, she did live her life to her fullest. great results. commitee member of cca. yah

2005-05-06T20:23:00.000+08:00

went for squash finals today. acjc lost to rjc. anyway i din expect them to win. they must be grateful tt they got into the finals. it was quite interesting at first but it turned boring eventually. i tink tt squash is really a thinking game. u gonna anticipate where ur opponent will move, how he will hit the ball n everything. two person locked in tt small court. just u n him. ya. mind game. anyway, was pretty slack today.

ytd was thursday but the time table was swopped with mon's. so a short day became a long day. so sian.
during physics lect ytd i was pretty sian n irritated. suddenly felt like blogging. so i blogged my thoughts at tt time on my phone. here it goes:
"why some yucky pple haf friends...they are so yucky... she is fat. she is short. pimpled big face. she is always requesting things from other pple... n she always get wat she wants... always receive n never want to give... is she the type of friends most pple wanted? i dono... selfish. spoilt... self-centered. yucks not slim still dare to wear until like tt... ya maybe pple really like friends was are very selfish... friends tt don care about them when they(friends) don need them..."

yah went for jc cgm ytd. was in bukit timah. was fun. enriching. the word was really for me man. yes it was for me. nice message. nice games. nice food. nice pple. nice house.

2005-05-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

i am a complete pest. but i still haf the right to dislike

i dislike friends tt ~~never~~ seldom reply my msg.
i dislike ~~friends~~ people who forever reject my invitation. always. for after so long.
i dislike friends who are ignorant of everything.
i dislike wealthy friends. i cant interact with them with my few pennies.
i dislike unmotivated friends.
i dislike friends tt isolated or ostracised themselves when nobody want to do tt to them. make ~~stupid~~ assumptions.
i dislike friends tt always isolate me to ask pple i don like questions. langh n talk to them. yucks. so fake.

i don like. i really don like. i cant bring myself to interact or hang out with them.

i don like giving in everytime. being the enthu one. very sian. so yucky. but the bible says tt we cant love w/o giving rite? yah right. so i ask myself do i love them? the answer used to be yes. but now i doubt so. the rejections n the unbalance feeling in my heart i got everytime when i hang out with them made that love fades......

*today got package test. it was okay. :)

had library cip today... was damn damn slack. was asked to do stamping at first. stamping of the library name on some kind of form. then was asked to do the trail guides for the fiction books. then copied the diffenrent names of magazines the library haf. then at last, didi a little bit of shelfing. nice nice.

2005-05-03T21:35:00.000+08:00

ya. i am selfish. i am self-centered. i am the idiot. yah. huiyu is the worst living thing on earth.
i cant run.
i cant speak well.
i cant communicate.
i cant interact.
i cant study well.

yucky huiyu

2005-05-02T19:05:00.000+08:00

something i wana share:

Genesis 11:31-32, 12:1-4
Abraham's Commitments b4 his Promises From God are Fulfilled

leaving Ur (his city= his home=all his background)
leaving Haran (his father=his old man=his past)
letting Lot go (Gen 13:14-17) do away with Ishmael (Gen 21:9-14) (never try to help God)
letting Issac go (a sacrifice)

in tis, i wana focus on letting Lot go n doing away with Ishmael.

letting Lot go: Lot(heb.) => a veil, a covering. so Lot is like a veil tt made Abraham unable to see his vision from God clearly. somemore from Gen 13:5-13, we can see that Lot is indeed righteous but not holy. he is not dedicated, devoted to God. not set apart n there is no meekness in him towards God. *meekness is NOT weakness but is a controlled emotion, a strength in heart. so Lot has to go

doing away with Ishmael: ok tis is a little complex. God promised Abraham a child but he tried to help God. he slept with his maid n ishmael was borned. so ishmael is like a unhealthy relationship we haf that hinder us from God. so Abraham has to let him go too. but God is a God who never fail His promises. God promised Abraham tt his descendants will prosper n grow. so after ishmael went, he did prosper. btw, if i dono ishmael's descendants are the muslims. so don try to help God. NEVER!!!

sometimes, maybe it is time to let go n let God.

2005-05-02T18:40:00.000+08:00

i was looking thru the photos for last year's emerge conference. it was brilliant. emerge conference is the best man. i love emerge conference. i think i wana take part in word power tis year. yah. coz i really wana get myself involved tis year. extreme sports i cant. talentime nah. media exposure dono how to. preaching challenge nope coz i cant speak well. but i tink i wana try one day. so to conclude i wana take part in wana take part in word power tis year. yea. btw, good news good news! i am still at home now. so tis means tt my father din chase me out! haha. so happy. he allow me to go church. wah. tt was one of my goals tt i write in my goal setting card tis year!!! haha so happy.

ok now i wana continue what i stopped ytd. but i wana cancel onepoint i mentioned. the fun-filled part. i was tinking thru bout tis friendship just now while i am ironing my uniform. actually, i may not be happy even if i go for the bbq. like u see. the bbq is supposed to be on sunday but till mon, things are still not planned yet. pit not booked. room not booked. things needed not listed. wat is tis loh? am i supposed to do it? ya maybe they assumed tt huiyu will do it. assumed tt in the end, huiyu will become enthu n do it. everytime if we planned tt we wana go out. most of the time, they suggested but in the end, it is still until the last min when I ASKED then dey decide where to go n when. so sian right? but mayb u may say tt i am petty. but the fact is who isnt? yah i tried being passive in everything we are going to do but in the end the things are sort of cancelled coz maybe they haf totally forgotten bout it or too lazy to do something bout it.

u noe what i finally noe why everything is like tt now. why they are always so passive? coz they are not living seriously. merely existing. everything to them is just so invaluable perhaps. everything around them came so easily. yea. i think tt's the reason why. i may be too harsh in my words but tt's really wat i tink.

2005-05-01T20:52:00.000+08:00

haiz. thank God. thank God. so far. he is still acting normal. he havent question me yet. thank God. the devil must be crying now. haha. so happy. even if he will question me later or dono when. i want to confirm tt the devil will still cry.heh. stupid devil.

just another slacking+lazy day at home. coz tml is holiday, no need to go to sch. so don felt like doing anything. hmmm.. tink i am going to town tml. go shopping as usual. there is tis dkny sale in town. quite excited bout it. heh. hope can catch a steal.

hmm. just rmb tt today supposed to be a fun-filled day but it is all cancelled. becoz of me? yah maybe. maybe not. it would haf also be a failure not becoz of me. they din wana plan anything bout it. somemore i wasnt the one who suggested it n in the end i became the only one enthu bout it. became a stupid clown. they wana haf tis bbq but they don wana do anything bout it. so wats the point of me being the enthu one? ok. no point. so lazy. tis is partly the reason.

why must i help them fulfill wat they wish to do but in the end when i tell them what i wish for, they always sort of try to avoid it. aiya. if i continue, i cant stop. the daniel wu show is on so i must stop. so i cant continue. another day ok? i promise another day i will continue.

2005-05-01T15:44:00.000+08:00

"If I Ain't Got You"
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a boreSo full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

2005-05-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

heh... there's a mix of feelings now. expectancy. joy. faith. hope. but definitely no regrets.
u noe what? i tink i am quite brave. yah. quite brave. i haf been waiting for tis day to come. God had prepared His servant for tis day or de things tt are going to happen after tis day for 2 years.. long time huh! yah quite long but i really wanna thank God tt it din come earlier or later. tis is jus de perfect timing for tis. yah. happy. i pray for more wisdom. wisdom wisdom wisdom. divine wisdom.

btw, if u dono, my dad dono i am in city harvest church. oops. he noe. he jus noe tt. i told him. i told him coz i tink tis is de perfect timing n sooner or later i haf to tell him. i haf to go up to another level somehow. i hate stay on the same level for a long time. not progress=backslide. ya so i told him. waiting for his reponse tmr. he is on night shift today. he may chase me out of the house like wat he did that time. he may throw away my bible like wat he did that time. he may do all sorts of things. i am ready. yes i am. ever ready. ready after 2 whole years. n did u realize something..... the stupid irritating devil is always up to his dumb same old tricks n persecutions style to slay us? he is just so dumb. no wonder he always lose. after tis i can go to church wo lying to him. wat a relief. really happy u noe. boof~~

*i want to be like King Solomon.....!!!!

2005-04-30T00:01:00.000+08:00

went to cgm just now. really beautiful house in yew tee.
repented for my wrongdoings. n now i am new again. refreshed. renewed. brand new huiyu. washed by His blood as white as snow.
now i pray tt the past. my bad quality seeds i sow will not pull me down again. God, U gonna help me!
really felt the presence of God n the Holy Spirit jus now. wept. tears. mucus. de hot pouring feeling. de goosebumps. God really touched me jus now not only during praise n worship but also by His msg.
learnt quite a few things or in others words, God reminded me of quite a few stuff...

how to verify the voice of God?
it come in a still n small voice. most importantly it brings peace, assurance, certainty in our hearts tt it is right to do tt. in other ways, when a thought that makes u feel uncertain, unassure, unrest or insercurity come into ur mind, tt is not God but u urself or the shity devil...

love the unlovable ones
loving the lovable ones to everyone is easy but loving the unlovable ones is such a chore. they may hurt u b4, laugh at u b4, do bad things to u or say bad things bout u b4.but God says tt u gonna love them. its all bout santification on earth tt we must go thru. forgive them. yah maybe i shld....... yah i shld forgive..... what for must i bear tis grudge? i shldnt b the one who is suffering all this pain n sinning if they are in the wrong

the unseen things
i haf blogged bout tis a few days ago so i shld quote...

"God Will Hear YouThen the people came to the house of God, and remained there before God till evening. They lifted up their voices and wept bitterly. Judges 21:2
Two girls arrived home from sunday school. "Mother," one said, "our teacher told us that we must come to Jesus if we want to saved from our sins. But how can we come to Him when we cannot see Him?"
"Did you call and ask me to get you a drink of water last night?" replied Mother.
"Yes, Mother.""did you see me when you asked me?"
"no, but i knew tt you would hear me and get it for me."
"well, ttis just the way to come to Jesus, you cannor see him, but He is near and hears every word you say."
The Lord Jesus can hear YOU. You can come to Him and ask Him to save you from YOUR sins. then you can talk to Him anytime about anything!

things tt can be seen is so temporary.... in fact most things tt are more complex, important n eternal are things unseen.... things like air, electricity, love, grace n definitely God...!!!"
[quoted from 19 apr entry]

2005-04-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

to fitz:
but i am really tired of always being the one who initiate things u noe.... always like tt.... friendship n relationships are two ways... really tired n sian of always being the enthu one in tis friendship.... when they all seemed to be so passive.... to them is like got or don haf also de same... so wats the point? huh? i don noe.... maybe i am just a nobody with serious attitude problem in their lives....

2005-04-28T17:43:00.000+08:00

you know when things become an i don't know?
it is when you know but you don't accept what you know, or when you absolutely do not know but you think you sort of know, that it becomes an i don't know.
so right now, i'm feeling like an i don't know.and it is because i know but i don't accept what i know.
and i am in deep deep shit, in diificult trouble n in hot hot soup.

i dono how to start. actually its my own fault. all my fault. i shouldnt haf done tt but i never regret wat i did ytd.
haiz.... life in acj is so rigid esp in lpj's class. she is the most rigid teacher i haf ever seen. so yucky. so young and wasted all her youth mugging n not enjoying herself. now in her twenties but look like she is in her late 30s.... yucky right?
ok back to the point. it was track meet ytd. wed was my only early day n now they want me to stay until 6? haha funny so i sneak out of sch thru a very adventurous n stupid way but in de end i managed to slip out. yea. went shopping. was happy coz bought a lot of stuff....
3 pairs of earrings.
1 necklace.
my conditioner.
pencil BOX.
mother's day present.
my little sis reward pencil which i promised her if she finish one of her writing exercise bks.
was really a happy n successful shopping trip. but today at first everything seemed normal until that idiotic thai freak in my class told lpj i wasnt at de track meet ytd. wah. totally sabo lah. fine. de worst thing is tt i din noe lpj wasnt de one taking attendence at 1st so i simply excused myself by telling her i got dental appointment. then the most yucky thing happened!!!! she wanted to call the dental clinic so i tell her im going to bring de appointment card tml. oh no oh no. if she really call i will b in really deep shit ard. wah. cant take it. somemore i couldnt haf run away with it by telling her i was in some deserted site in sch doing my work since she wasnt the one taking the attendence. now its like a chinese saying zhi tao ku chi. haiz haiz. die die. wat shld i do now? i really dont noe.

i tink i am really harvesting the seed(bad ones) i haf sowed. i am so mean sometimes. i admit.
fitz: sori for being so mean to you...
pon: u deserve mean words
*oh no i am being mean again. hmmm... takes time takes time....

i was tinking she may also be the one saboing me ytd. if yes, tt's it lah. tt's the end between ~~de two of us.~~ the three of us. nothing has turn better. but tis shows tt we can survive without ~~each other~~ one another. good. i really tink tt we are people of different frequency.

*went pacific plaza ytd nite again... its was ladies' nite so free admission... trying to stay awake n alert coz today got sch... reach home at bout 2something... tired!

2005-04-26T19:22:00.000+08:00

what are friends for? i don noe... seriously i really don noe.... so far from all my friendships n my experience.... there's one thing i can be definitely true......

FRIENDS ~~ALWAYS~~ OFTEN FAIL US BUT GOD(my bestest friend) NEVER FAILS....

i really think i just can communicate well with others...... tt's why all my friendships are not firm enough.... i seriously always envy those who haf really good friends n those who are always there for them..... hahaha... but mine... haiz.... most just treat me n take me as someone with ap but did they ever try to understand me? try to noe why sometimes haf mood swings? wat are the reasons behind these mood swings? NOPE... they never try to understand why..... boof.... n one more thing is tt i got more disappointments than care n concern from them..... but thank God for my cg pple like sis mayce n sis jasmine who is always there for me.... n seah, though we are not very very very close but she is really a friend who really show she care..... at least she is concern bout me.... she is always the one who would try to understand me.... mayb she wasnt but i can really feel tt she treat me as her friend.... true friend....

*anyway, the vector space test today was pretty alright..... heh... i got back my brain from eating.... so advice of the day: EAT IF U WANNA THINK WELL!!!! hehe... :)

2005-04-23T13:46:00.000+08:00

wah~~ really long time never hang out so late at night with min n xin ard.... ytd nite was a great time.... xin wear like wah.... went to have a great n satisfying dinner at cafe' cartel.... the baked macaroni was damn nice... i like... also had tis dory fish which is not so nice n a hawaiian pizza which is ok..... i really like the baked macaroni n of course my oreo minty.... yum yum.... btw time we finished, it was bout 9 something ard..... as we walk along the road, shops are closing.. so sad.... so nowhere to go..... so decided to walk to pacific plaza..... u noe what, don u....? the queue was long.... hang around abit... take photos... then.. anyway it was worth it right, min? i tink we saw him... only tink....

i looked totally dazed off in these photos n xin look totally drunk....

2005-04-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... not a bad day today.... i meant as better to the last two horrible day.... somehow coz i got back to my regular food eating recess not fruits eating... i tink i really cant think wo food so too bad haf to eat.... eating is so happy for me.... i love eating.... another thing is that i finally got over the gp common exam... although i don really tink i did well, i got over it finally coz i got tis phobia for gp, especially the thought of looking thru all the 12 essay questions n i cant do all... tt is a terrible feeling... so bad... the thought of handing in a blank piece of paper.... tis yucky feeling.... but eventually, i got over it!!!! really happy n relieved.... somemore sean tan not coming for the 3-period pract lesson tml... tml is going to be so slack... good good.... joyful joyful.... today got amazing race!!! hmm... good day good day...

then found these pics which is quite funny....

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2005-04-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

started the week bad...... 2nd day also felt as bad.... low self-esteem is taking over me.... suddenly i felt lost... unsure of what the future will be.... then God told me.... He is always there... He understand n always listening to my problems...

God Will Hear You
Then the people came to the house of God, and remained there before God till evening. They lifted up their voices and wept bitterly. Judges 21:2
Two girls arrived home from sunday school. "Mother," one said, "our teacher told us that we must come to Jesus if we want to saved from our sins. But how can we come to Him when we cannot see Him?"
"Did you call and ask me to get you a drink of water last night?" replied Mother.
"Yes, Mother."
"did you see me when you asked me?"
"no, but i knew tt you would hear me and get it for me."
"well, ttis just the way to come to Jesus, you cannor see him, but He is near and hears every word you say."
The Lord Jesus can hear YOU. You can come to Him and ask Him to save you from YOUR sins. then you can talk to Him anytime about anything!

things tt can be seen is so temporary.... in fact most things tt are more complex, important n eternal are things unseen.... things like air, electricity, love, grace n definitely God...!!!

2005-04-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

bad pw results.... its ok but those who doesnt really do the work got better than me.... i don like.... EEEeeekkkk~~~ somemore she is so yucky.... i don like....

somehow today is a depressed day, partly becoz i got my pw result at the beginning of the day.... haizzz...... ended school totally screwed up.... doing all sorts of mean n stupid+silly things... just my form of winding up..... i am totally so stressed out by everything..... today i finally understand the part pst kong preached on sat tt all the yucky pple most bad pple in the world got things tt they don deserve..... when we christians don..... so sad.. why like tt? but one thing i definitely noe is tt God has a great plan for me n i gonna praise Him in any circumstances... amen...

he is really cute.... hmmm... but too bad..... he is the flower...... but i am only one of the flies flying around the dung tt pple say is unworthy to be with the flower.... too bad... i am not even worthy to be the dung.... dung still haf flies pestering them but me heh.... nope.... nah... BUT nvm i haf God... Thank God for always being there for me......

2005-04-17T16:18:00.000+08:00

i am not what i think i am
i am not what u think i am
i am what God says i am

2005-04-17T16:01:00.000+08:00

tired n tons of chores still not done.... life haiz....

i tink he knew it ard.... but somehow he will know it one day.... Pray tt God will gif me the strength n right words to speak....
mayce: show him tt u are a strong christian n also care for him..... don cry be calm...
i really hope i can protray tt when i speak to him sometime.... he just went out... i tink its going to come later.... somehow, tis time round i felt i am prepared for the questioning.... i seems tt i haf been waiting n preparing myself for tis moment for a long time all the while i started tis journey.... made tis choice.... 1 yr n 9 mth waiting for tis to approach.... i can simply say tt i am definitely stronger n more prepared than b4.... last time i face tis problem, i wasnt prepared... i was still easily agitated... not very mature yet.... everything is like so yucky tt time.... kana chase out of the house n everything..... its like no one dare to put on tis timed bomb ever since then....thank God it came now n not somewhere earlier... indeed, God noes the perfect timing for everything.... i hope i can control my tears... yap... all the best to me man.... wherever u are, pls pls pray for me.....

THANK GOD!!!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!! U'RE FOREVER MY BEST FRIEND, LORD!!!!

*~Into ur hands, I commit again,
With all I am, For u Lord,
U hold my world in de palm of Ur hand,
N I am Urs forever ~*

*~I'll walk with U, wherever U go,
Through tears and joy,I'll trust in U,
N I will live in all of Ur ways n Ur promises
Forever.....~*

*~Ur Name Are Like Honey To My Lips,
Ur Spirit is Like Water To My Soul,
Ur Word is A light Unto My Feet...~*

****the most valuable praise to God is whenever it is the most unconvenient....

2005-04-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

very happy today... went to support the polo team... it was raining damn heavily.... drenched like siao... but in the end, acj won the waterpolo finals!!!! Weeee~~~ haha.... acs won the gold for polo for all the division!!! very happy... first time see min so happy n excited b4 the match... the girl really cheered her hearts out... also my first time seeing her like tt..... then silly her kept saying tt she is damn happy on our way back home... haha.... really funny... but somehow i thought tt she look like xin last year bcoz of some ~~... haizzz.... in trouble somehow... but he is really cute.... n as wat xin said hot...

anyway its so hard for a girl to make the first move... so difficult for a girl who love her guy more than he love her.... so hard.... so sad.... some girl named k*... i pity her.... did her everything waiting for his love... for his hug... did silly things for him.... in the end, she got nothing back.... in our society, is it tt hard for the girls to be the active one? definitely YES!!! although i don really noe her, i really pity her... so sad for her... ke lian... her disappointments n everything.... her sincerity, courage to confess, care n concern din pay off... haizzz... guys...booooo!!!!

watched oc ytd... nice nice.... gonna watch survivor now... nitez... angels... c".)

2005-04-14T17:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.... ytd got tis ne talk.... actually not talk..its sort of a a qna session.... the chief of army came.... he told a *beep beep* story... actually not very appropriate.... anyway, ytd was a happy day... got to sleep for a long time.... heh...

today got physic test... wah... very hard... can die... really damn hard, couldnt do a lot of questions.... boohoohoo... nvm... gonna work doubly hard for physics with my rocky tutor n the whole wateva shit physics department... hope to get a tutor for physics... but i don tink i can afford.... anyway, today celebrated the april babies birthday... yum yum got cake but too bad, i am fasting today....

went to check on the hangout hotel just now... hangout @ mt emily...nice place.... but the info was very brief... dono got swimming pool or bbq pit or not... anyone been there b4? can tell me....? i gonna ut the shoutbox up again.... if anyone noe can tell me... thanks... btw, we cant haf bbq at xin sis condo ard.... so sad.... perfect site but xin n her sis quarrel so now cannot ard... so sad... so now we planning to haf our bbq at the Hangout Hotel near orchard.... haizz~~~ actually i also not confirm if i can go anot....

***if i aint got God... i wont be here today....

2005-04-14T17:49:00.000+08:00

"If I Ain't Got You"
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a boreSo full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you babyIf I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

2005-04-12T22:44:00.000+08:00

sean tan not here today... kuna came in... he was damn funny... he say seantan was pregnant... blah blah blah... alot of crap..... but still haf to do some difficult NMR question....

just finished tons of durians... yum yum... but very heaty.... gonna drink some bird nest later.... or else will be more sick tml... then friday cant go already... quite excited for friday... heh... looking forward to fri... yum yum

i was reading Judges 15-16 ytd.... this is my revelation.... it was bout Samson a damn strong man... a man of God... very strong can kill 100 at once n even carry a town's gate.... but God said tt he can only haf such great strength if he retain his hair.... once, due to his beloved woman, he cut his hair n lost his promise from God..... hmmm... so does tt mean u cant cut ur hair? of course not.... the hair in Samson case is the vow n promise we made to God.... we gonna fulfill a tiny vow we made to God n we can get His great promise for us.... exchanging a great promise by a tiny commitment... hmmm.... very worth it isnt it? But there's still something i wana mention.... God is so merciful.... Samson's hair can be grown back!!!! so don be dismayed if u are not fulfilling ur promise to God.... commit urself once again into the promise n God will also fulfill His promise for u.... when u do ur tiny part, God will do His great portion....

hmmm.... cant wait for the BBQ..... 2 weeks++ more...

2005-04-12T21:40:00.000+08:00

i am disappointed ~~maybe its my problem... i expected too much...

i don wana go for camelot ~~maybe pple tink tt i am trying to be irritating n hafing ap.... or maybe they don even care

i haf a long wishlist in my mind ~~does rich pple haf a wishlist? don they just buy wateva they want? ya maybe they dont haf a wislist...

i hope to get a scholarship ~~maybe pple tink i am aiming too high.... ya maybe i am but i am not rich.... i still haf a little sis at home who is totally dependent on us.... my another sis is also aiming to get in uni.... btw, did anyone noe tt my dad even haf prob to pay for my alevel exam fees? i bet nobody noes, only God noes....

i hope God will forgive me for every wilful sin i haf commited ~~thank God for tt... tis is the only thing i haf never doubted about.... THANK GOD!!! i really hope i wont disappoint Him by being sinful again....

2005-04-10T15:35:00.000+08:00

haiz.... the pics din turn out very well... but nvm.... daniel wu is really cute..... n Takeshi Kaneshiro is so gay... haha... min must be furious... but i really tink tt he look damn gay with long hair... yucks i tink guys with long hair are so disgusting....

slept at 5something in the morning today.... it was damn hot n humid these days.... sweating like crazy.... still manage to complete the projectile tutorial... next week got emi n ac test... so sian... i really don like physics.... don like the physics department..... sometimes i tink i haf never met a good physics teacher or tutor.... to me, pple who really understand how is really physics are really freaks... how the hell they can understand.... physics is like making simple common sensical things complex n complicated..... so dumb.... so yucky... somemore tml got physics skill a... *rock din teach much on it... totally haf no idea wat is it.... boof.... dying.... :P

sometimes i wonder if my class don bond is it because of me..... it seems like my class always don bond well... i tink i am really a big problem... really mean problematic girl with whom the class cant bond... mayb i should stop being myself... stop being so straightforward n keep my big mouth shut all the time.... BUT if i do tt, pple say i got ap... so contridicting.... interpersonal relationships are such a complex n difficult thing.... so difficult for me.... i am totally a not people-orientated person..... tt's the main result i want to go into the field of research... doing my own r&d in the labs.... working with chemicals... i sometimes really dread interacting with pple... humans' mind are so unpredictable.... i don like....

but Jesus once say that things we do to our brothers n sisters, we are doing unto Him.... so may treat everyone well.... i hope i can... i pray i can.... i do my best....

*~.:The Way He Planned My Life:.~*

sad sad me?

Forgiveness

hey

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