i cried today during worship...
God flashed me all the disappointing, rejected and sad moments i haf in acjc..... sad i cried... actutally not bcoz i am leaving sch or the people ard me but i was totally so sad to recall those hurtful moments n really thankful for God as He was really always with me thru all these times n pains... bringing me thru it... though till today there are still sad sad DISAPPOINTING moments...

ya maybe i really shldnt put expectations on man anymore but put my expectation fully on God....

**......Birthday Special....**


hey guys.... this is a birthday special entry....


firstly, i really wana thank my cell group for the birthday "celebration" at zhenle's place... actually it was a half- surprise.... half not surprise.... coz since i am the birthday i/c, i sort of knew it when Bro Andrew wanted to call back all the w357 pple for announcement.... somemore without our dear yan ming n shu jun... then i seriously wanted to go toilet but they don let me go n sent joseph asking me tons of questions..... so it's like expected for a while... half surprise is tt u all still rmb my birthday when i am the birthday i/c.... u noe manyatime, the birthday i/c's birthday is forgotten since she cant collect money for her own birthday present... so well thanks for the adidas bag n billabong bottle.... yap... would used it maybe in the 4th term or even when uni term opens.... cherish it very much.... yanming, shujun, darice, zhenle, elgin, jin lih, huijuan, keeliang, tianhui, huiyi, bro andrew.... thanks so much...... n not forgetting dear kolina who is the first to msg me happy birthday... thanks.... i really cherish our friendship!


secondly, i wana thank the netball cap[taitai-to-be] n entree pres in my class.... i am really quite surprised wheni lift tt hippo up to see so many colour pens.... 11 in total.... tied under a happy house hippo.... if the hippo can fly, the pens will look like long bullets tt can shoot... haha... really thanks... like it very much.... thanks for the time u all spend to get the present in tis exam period.... thanks for the laughter n company as well... really..... THANKS LOTZ!!!


thirdly, i wana thank my parents for the hongbao n the "For my daughter" magnet.... quite a surprise too.... thank my crez sis for doing things she don like to do like shopping to get me a gift she claimed to haf bought but i havent receive...... n thank the whole family for the birthday cake tt is going to come.... it has been years since i get to celebrate my birthday with my family.... after some incidents years back, we started not to celebrate birthdays with cake.... mine is the 1st in a long while.... hmm.... gonna enjoy my cake n will enjoy it...... oreo cake yum!


fourthly, thanks felicia for always being a true friend..... although it's only a text msg, i really cherish it...


fifth, i really wana thank God.... Thank God for bring all the pple whom i have mentioned above.... thank God even for pple for whom i havent mentioned....
i was lying in bed reading some notes ytd nite.... then something tt was always on my side table caught my attention... a photo.... a photo taken 5 years back on my birthday.... 3 sistas.... i was sec one, my other sisters one just a mth old, another in pri 5..... u noe what? we changed SOOOOOO much in such a short period of time, only 5 years n we haf changed so much...... not only physically, but also spiritually n mentally.... i tink tis 5 years have really shaped my mental greatly.... great great impact..... so i wana thank God for tis wonderful.... hmmm.... wonderful? ok adventurous 5 years in life.... i haf really grown much in my thinking n eq n of course, my height[rite? yw].... thank God n the Holy Spirit for tis guidance... yes really..... maybe w/o God, i wont even live to 18 years old.... so THANK GOD!!!! thank God for bring me thru the real difficult times in these 5 years.... n all the blessings He brought.... i wouldnt haf come so far w/o U Lord....


i am really happy n delighted today.... i really felt loved n cherished.... although i don haf 3 cakes in a day, no crystal jade, no tons of birthday gift n wishes like how some taitai-to-be in my class got...... although i am having yucky physics paper 3 tml,...... although i haf to walk in the rain,.... although i haf to wake up early...... i still enjoyed my 18th birthday.... i felt really blessed.....
but most imptly, i din expect much but received far more than wat i expected....


BLESSED HUIYU!! :P

wouldnt be blogging in this while...

don feel like it.....
wana focus on something else....
going on the Paul's three decision journey....
will enlighten u abt tt if i haf chance....



bye guys